high stress high anxiety

I am predisposationally highly susceptiable to stress especially those due to interpersonal interaction.

Hence, giving a presentation has always been a problem since i didnt know how to handle it.

Whenever i tried practicing pior the actual presentaion things got worst simply due to the fact that i have Pior knowledge of how good I can be compare to my performance. With an observer around, I would underestimate their expectation about me. Due to the bad performance, this give rise to high level of stress and anxiety, which is a self fulling prohecy for me to do badly for the actual performance.

So i tried not rehearsing much, trying to let things flow. But simply because there is no practice, things doesn't flow and when idea get stuck, i will once again have a high level of stress and anxiety which will once again hinder my performance.

So next time, whenever i have a presentation i should practice by hard days before the actual presentation and let things flow during the acutal performace, making sure the anxiety doesnt go too high.. hmm...
Another presentation next week! so fun!