Thursday, November 30, 2006
chemical engineering
The trip to the hospital was not pleasant at all. Since when any trip to the hospital is?
Visited my nephew in TTSh's icu just now. Condition doesn't look good. The other operation should have ended by now, i hope. Guess a split second of accident changes everything, in fact, his family and relatives from malaysia actually planned to go out shopping at orchard today.
Yah, he was one of the victim mentioned in today's newspaper front page. The other one died. If he didn't crashed onto the bus, his situation might be even worst as the bus served as a cushion for him. I really wanted to see how the driver looked like, to look into the eyes of his. To think he had to cheek to run away after causing so much sufferings on others.
I hate cars. It never fails to take away things that are important to me.
That was why i procrastinated about learning driving for a long time, and even eventually i did, i don't have the courage to admit to people about me learning driving initially. And even when i passed, i don't dare to drive it out on my own.
Suddenly remembered one of the reasons i've taken up chemical engineering. Its him, i supposed.
The trip to the hospital was not pleasant at all. Since when any trip to the hospital is?
Visited my nephew in TTSh's icu just now. Condition doesn't look good. The other operation should have ended by now, i hope. Guess a split second of accident changes everything, in fact, his family and relatives from malaysia actually planned to go out shopping at orchard today.
Yah, he was one of the victim mentioned in today's newspaper front page. The other one died. If he didn't crashed onto the bus, his situation might be even worst as the bus served as a cushion for him. I really wanted to see how the driver looked like, to look into the eyes of his. To think he had to cheek to run away after causing so much sufferings on others.
I hate cars. It never fails to take away things that are important to me.
That was why i procrastinated about learning driving for a long time, and even eventually i did, i don't have the courage to admit to people about me learning driving initially. And even when i passed, i don't dare to drive it out on my own.
Suddenly remembered one of the reasons i've taken up chemical engineering. Its him, i supposed.
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:09 PM]
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Well rested, i hope
Been doing extremely light work for the past few days. Carbo-loading myself and stuff. I need all the rest and energy i can get before the marathon, its 4 more days! i hope i can survive. I couldn't make it for the 32km training target, i hope the resting this week can make up for what i've not achieve. (to those who didn't know, its my first marathon ever)
Apart from being involved with non-physical, mentally taxing stuff at home, eating and resting. I'm practically doing nothing at all.
I've been resting so much that i've been having dreams. Something i rarely have during my army days. Dreaming can be fun, it makes you think of stuff that you have never thought before. I get most of my inspirations from dreams. Somesay the dream world is the fine line between the world of the living and the spirits, i wonder how true is it.
As for my non-physical, mentally taxing stuffs? Others will think that i'm just wasting my time doing such things. But for me, they are my world, they are everything to me, for they are what made me who i am now. This is something that only i can understand and i have to go through this on my own. (haha, confused? you shld be as it is just for me to know!)
There are a few new aquaintances i've first met on monday. Its just so pleasing to hear of the praising they kept on giving to me from the start. So encouraging. Not to mention, they ended off the day by asking me how old am i.
"You jc har?"said one
"Can't be, most prob Sec 3 or 4!" said another.
I'm flattered. Must have been maintaining well during the past few weeks... oh look at the time! time for my facial... haahah!
tata!
Been doing extremely light work for the past few days. Carbo-loading myself and stuff. I need all the rest and energy i can get before the marathon, its 4 more days! i hope i can survive. I couldn't make it for the 32km training target, i hope the resting this week can make up for what i've not achieve. (to those who didn't know, its my first marathon ever)
Apart from being involved with non-physical, mentally taxing stuff at home, eating and resting. I'm practically doing nothing at all.
I've been resting so much that i've been having dreams. Something i rarely have during my army days. Dreaming can be fun, it makes you think of stuff that you have never thought before. I get most of my inspirations from dreams. Somesay the dream world is the fine line between the world of the living and the spirits, i wonder how true is it.
As for my non-physical, mentally taxing stuffs? Others will think that i'm just wasting my time doing such things. But for me, they are my world, they are everything to me, for they are what made me who i am now. This is something that only i can understand and i have to go through this on my own. (haha, confused? you shld be as it is just for me to know!)
There are a few new aquaintances i've first met on monday. Its just so pleasing to hear of the praising they kept on giving to me from the start. So encouraging. Not to mention, they ended off the day by asking me how old am i.
"You jc har?"said one
"Can't be, most prob Sec 3 or 4!" said another.
I'm flattered. Must have been maintaining well during the past few weeks... oh look at the time! time for my facial... haahah!
tata!
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:19 AM]
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Friday, November 24, 2006
on the bus!
For some reasons i changed my usual mode of transport of taking mrt from cck to city hall. Took the bus 170 instead today. I hopped up the bus and saw Ms fong and mr chia, sitting side by side with their eyes closed, resting. Very synchronised, anyone who saw it would know that they are a couple. It has been 4 yrs since their marriage.
Ms fong was my science/ bio teacher in mshs from sec 2-4, my form teacher as well. She was incharged of st john then.
Mr chia though he never taught me, was incharge of npcc.
I wondered where was their green car with powerpuff girls cushion at the back of the seats. Didn't want to disturb them from their rest, so i didn't ask or say 'hi'.
Perhaps this is the sign for me to continue my story that i've stopped for months. Since ms fong and chia were both part of my characters, they ARE the stars for the very touching, love story arc. Was intending to start next week anyway, i'm determined to finish it for good. At times fantasy should just come to an end...
Along the way, Mr donny got up the bus. He was my tennis instructor. Was too far to say hi, and i don't think he rmb me anyway.
Got down the bus at newton. Since my mind was very tuned to the past already, i think i saw one of my peichun classmates, yongta.
Then along the way at citylink, i saw sgt david. One of the instructor i knew from soce...
My orignal plan was to collect the goodie bag from suntec and since bz and friends were down there. I thought it was nice to tag along to say 'hi'. ITs always good to have more contacts. I solve problems by making friends, not enemies. Got to know zhimin, a friend of jy and bz. She was the one who picked up the phone when i tried contacting them. Very unique voice, recognised it straight away. Her style was so much like eugchua, i think both of them will become best of friends if they ever meet.
..... then was meeting with weicai to collect goodie bag, then tennis friends for tennis... yah.. happening but nothing blog worthy.
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Yesterday was wc's birthday.
And the passing of ntk's driving test.
Wanted to bring them out to celebrate. Really!
If ganesha is here, i think i know what he will do. And of cos i'll play along.
I suddenly learnt something abt wc during the pathetic attempt to buy him something yisi yisi for his present, which i decided not to. Post abt it some other time..
For some reasons i changed my usual mode of transport of taking mrt from cck to city hall. Took the bus 170 instead today. I hopped up the bus and saw Ms fong and mr chia, sitting side by side with their eyes closed, resting. Very synchronised, anyone who saw it would know that they are a couple. It has been 4 yrs since their marriage.
Ms fong was my science/ bio teacher in mshs from sec 2-4, my form teacher as well. She was incharged of st john then.
Mr chia though he never taught me, was incharge of npcc.
I wondered where was their green car with powerpuff girls cushion at the back of the seats. Didn't want to disturb them from their rest, so i didn't ask or say 'hi'.
Perhaps this is the sign for me to continue my story that i've stopped for months. Since ms fong and chia were both part of my characters, they ARE the stars for the very touching, love story arc. Was intending to start next week anyway, i'm determined to finish it for good. At times fantasy should just come to an end...
Along the way, Mr donny got up the bus. He was my tennis instructor. Was too far to say hi, and i don't think he rmb me anyway.
Got down the bus at newton. Since my mind was very tuned to the past already, i think i saw one of my peichun classmates, yongta.
Then along the way at citylink, i saw sgt david. One of the instructor i knew from soce...
My orignal plan was to collect the goodie bag from suntec and since bz and friends were down there. I thought it was nice to tag along to say 'hi'. ITs always good to have more contacts. I solve problems by making friends, not enemies. Got to know zhimin, a friend of jy and bz. She was the one who picked up the phone when i tried contacting them. Very unique voice, recognised it straight away. Her style was so much like eugchua, i think both of them will become best of friends if they ever meet.
..... then was meeting with weicai to collect goodie bag, then tennis friends for tennis... yah.. happening but nothing blog worthy.
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Yesterday was wc's birthday.
And the passing of ntk's driving test.
Wanted to bring them out to celebrate. Really!
If ganesha is here, i think i know what he will do. And of cos i'll play along.
I suddenly learnt something abt wc during the pathetic attempt to buy him something yisi yisi for his present, which i decided not to. Post abt it some other time..
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:50 PM]
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Imagine able have a personal horse to take care of, and able to ride on them all day long. Isn't it something all children alway wanted? Its just so cool to have a horse.
Well, i went for the interview at saddle club just now. (its part of my plan to make myself look busy, at least for this month until everything settle down. Hopefully.) To be involved in this job, i'll need to go through their 1 week training then their 1-6 months probation period, before i'm qualified to be a 'junior something'. Of cos, all come with allowance and pay.
The opportunity cost for this will be my time. 90% of it. That would mean that my plans will not go accordingly. So eventually this job is a nono to me.
Haiz.... We just can't get the best of everything, somethings you just have to 'give and take', doesn't it?
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:07 PM]
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gu story
There was this guy i knew from my platoon. We all call him gu.
Gu is 4 yrs older than me. Of similar age with my sister (oops! did i reveal something sensitive?). In fact their birthdays are just few weeks apart, maybe because of this, i always regard gu as an elder brother.
I always wonder how nice it will be to have an elder brother instead of a sister.
He is just the ideal elder brother i always wanted.
In my point of view, he is a amplified version of me for he was able to express all the traits (and behaviour) i wanted to show.
That was why i always try to help him in everyway i can.
To many, he is viewed to be very simple, incompetent at times and lazy who likes to complain and make noises. But i understand that this behaviour is actually what he wanted others to see him as, it has been forced out from him over the yrs. Similar to my case. Its so deep rooted within us that so much so that we can't change it even if we really wanted to.
The more he expressed out such personality, the more sadness and problems i can feel from him.
He has been trying so hard to cover up his sadness. He is strong. He is my wind.
I want to have an elder brother like him
There was this guy i knew from my platoon. We all call him gu.
Gu is 4 yrs older than me. Of similar age with my sister (oops! did i reveal something sensitive?). In fact their birthdays are just few weeks apart, maybe because of this, i always regard gu as an elder brother.
I always wonder how nice it will be to have an elder brother instead of a sister.
He is just the ideal elder brother i always wanted.
In my point of view, he is a amplified version of me for he was able to express all the traits (and behaviour) i wanted to show.
That was why i always try to help him in everyway i can.
To many, he is viewed to be very simple, incompetent at times and lazy who likes to complain and make noises. But i understand that this behaviour is actually what he wanted others to see him as, it has been forced out from him over the yrs. Similar to my case. Its so deep rooted within us that so much so that we can't change it even if we really wanted to.
The more he expressed out such personality, the more sadness and problems i can feel from him.
He has been trying so hard to cover up his sadness. He is strong. He is my wind.
I want to have an elder brother like him
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:16 AM]
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006
42km??
The standard charter 42km run is just 2 weeks away. I've decided to do a 'as long as possible run' at 3.30pm just now. I only ran 2.5 hrs before my legs started to shut down. That would mean my max distance at one shot is only 25km!!
So its just 17km more within the span of 2 weeks, how nice!
Whats encouraging was that i was wearing my limiter. If i remove it, i might just be able to run another 30 mins, hopefully... what is about 30km..
To think i was planning to be involve in the challenger part time job straight after the run! haha, i must be kidding myself..
The standard charter 42km run is just 2 weeks away. I've decided to do a 'as long as possible run' at 3.30pm just now. I only ran 2.5 hrs before my legs started to shut down. That would mean my max distance at one shot is only 25km!!
So its just 17km more within the span of 2 weeks, how nice!
Whats encouraging was that i was wearing my limiter. If i remove it, i might just be able to run another 30 mins, hopefully... what is about 30km..
To think i was planning to be involve in the challenger part time job straight after the run! haha, i must be kidding myself..
Catching the falling leaves ...[8:59 PM]
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Monday, November 20, 2006
retail therapy: pros and cons
People normally appreciate the things they have once they lose them. Nonetheless, trading in my 3230 was not. (of cos i realised today that it has really cool functions that is unqiue to itself only such as the dictionary etc...Its a smart phone anyway..)
Was planning to trade in my hp for quite sometime, since its warranty expired. It spoilt twice within this one yr and i wouldn't be surprise that it suddenly just die on me. It started its auto off tantrum last two weeks, and it was just yesterday (and today as well) that the "you can hear me but i cannot hear u" syndrome sets in. Lets quickly trade it in before its $100 value becomes worthless, shouldn't we?
Thinkin of buying a $200 worth phone, so in a way i only need to top up $100. Nonetheless, the only $200 phones are those that are going to be obsolete. Those 2nd generation colour hps... I don't think i'll be able to get use to such antique nor to buy cheaper 2nd hand phones. I'll have to exceed my budget to top up $200 + more for a 6125 instead. Its new, modern and cheaper.
'Lets hope it doesn't suddenly auto shut down or he realise that there is something not right with the speaker,' I told myself while 'studying' the new 6125, as the sales person started to inspect the 3230. My shifty eyes couldn't help it but to stare at him from time to time.
"hmm, the phone very hard to on when i adjust the battery," he voiced out.
I immediately thought, 'oh no, its the memory card slot which the joint is very fragile that is causing the circuit to be liddat.'
Whereas i replied,"really? perhaps you didn't put in the battery properly"
The transaction was faster and easier than i first thought.
Certainly, the 6125 is not the ideal phone i wanted, nevertheless it is good enough for me to last me this 1 yr before my contract fully expires then i can get a much better one. It comes to me that 1 yr contract will worth around $100 , so a 2 yr contract will be $200 plus worth.
People normally appreciate the things they have once they lose them. Nonetheless, trading in my 3230 was not. (of cos i realised today that it has really cool functions that is unqiue to itself only such as the dictionary etc...Its a smart phone anyway..)
Was planning to trade in my hp for quite sometime, since its warranty expired. It spoilt twice within this one yr and i wouldn't be surprise that it suddenly just die on me. It started its auto off tantrum last two weeks, and it was just yesterday (and today as well) that the "you can hear me but i cannot hear u" syndrome sets in. Lets quickly trade it in before its $100 value becomes worthless, shouldn't we?
Thinkin of buying a $200 worth phone, so in a way i only need to top up $100. Nonetheless, the only $200 phones are those that are going to be obsolete. Those 2nd generation colour hps... I don't think i'll be able to get use to such antique nor to buy cheaper 2nd hand phones. I'll have to exceed my budget to top up $200 + more for a 6125 instead. Its new, modern and cheaper.
'Lets hope it doesn't suddenly auto shut down or he realise that there is something not right with the speaker,' I told myself while 'studying' the new 6125, as the sales person started to inspect the 3230. My shifty eyes couldn't help it but to stare at him from time to time.
"hmm, the phone very hard to on when i adjust the battery," he voiced out.
I immediately thought, 'oh no, its the memory card slot which the joint is very fragile that is causing the circuit to be liddat.'
Whereas i replied,"really? perhaps you didn't put in the battery properly"
The transaction was faster and easier than i first thought.
Certainly, the 6125 is not the ideal phone i wanted, nevertheless it is good enough for me to last me this 1 yr before my contract fully expires then i can get a much better one. It comes to me that 1 yr contract will worth around $100 , so a 2 yr contract will be $200 plus worth.
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:10 PM]
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
music of the night...
Listening to 'music of the night' seems to be the only thing that can give me solace i needed most. It really reflects my feeling now. It gave me enough time for me to think clearly.
(to think i spent the entire day talking to myself! haha! the phantom always does the trick!)
Having courage to face your problems is easy (for me at least),
but at times dealing with it is not.
I've overestimated myself to plunge into this mess.
I'm dealing with it slowly, using my own way, at my own pace...
All i need is to sit back and readjust my well organise plans... everything will work out fine.
Who says anything about giving up?
Me? asking for help? u must be kidding...
Night-time sharpens, heightens each sensation.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defenses.
Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendors
Grasp it, sense it tremulous and tender.
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts awayfrom cold, unfeeling light
and listen to the music of the night.
Close your eyes and surrender to yourdarkest dreams!
Purge your thoughtsof the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spiritstart to soar!A
nd you'll live as you've never lived before
Softly, deftly, music shall surround you
Feel it, hear it, closing in around you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before!
Let your soul Take you where you long to be !
Only then can you belong to me . . .
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savor each sensation!
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give into the power of the music that I write the power of the music of the night
You alone can make my song take flight -
help me make the music of the night . .
Listening to 'music of the night' seems to be the only thing that can give me solace i needed most. It really reflects my feeling now. It gave me enough time for me to think clearly.
(to think i spent the entire day talking to myself! haha! the phantom always does the trick!)
Having courage to face your problems is easy (for me at least),
but at times dealing with it is not.
I've overestimated myself to plunge into this mess.
I'm dealing with it slowly, using my own way, at my own pace...
All i need is to sit back and readjust my well organise plans... everything will work out fine.
Who says anything about giving up?
Me? asking for help? u must be kidding...
Night-time sharpens, heightens each sensation.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defenses.
Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendors
Grasp it, sense it tremulous and tender.
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts awayfrom cold, unfeeling light
and listen to the music of the night.
Close your eyes and surrender to yourdarkest dreams!
Purge your thoughtsof the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spiritstart to soar!A
nd you'll live as you've never lived before
Softly, deftly, music shall surround you
Feel it, hear it, closing in around you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before!
Let your soul Take you where you long to be !
Only then can you belong to me . . .
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savor each sensation!
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give into the power of the music that I write the power of the music of the night
You alone can make my song take flight -
help me make the music of the night . .
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:45 AM]
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
Help... ...
I can't believe the accumulation of happy memories and mentally preparing myself during the past few months were just not enough for me to handle the pressure for 1 day.
Its just sucks every single strand of happiness from you. And for me who already doesn't have any, it just becomes negative to infinity...
It has been 10 days since i left the army.
That would mean that i've been staying at home for 10 days already.
My boss always say i siao for willingly wanting to stay in camp.... i have my reasons for that...
The camp seemed to be the only safe place for me, its my sanctuary
I don't have wk's simplistic and drive
I don't have nv's street smart and quick thinking
i don't have yk's christma and maturity.
neither do i not have fabien's sociability and compromissary
nor yl's patience and calmness
certainly not ef's easy going and helpfulness
and bryan's witiness and flexibility.
I only know how to run.....
I can't believe the accumulation of happy memories and mentally preparing myself during the past few months were just not enough for me to handle the pressure for 1 day.
Its just sucks every single strand of happiness from you. And for me who already doesn't have any, it just becomes negative to infinity...
It has been 10 days since i left the army.
That would mean that i've been staying at home for 10 days already.
My boss always say i siao for willingly wanting to stay in camp.... i have my reasons for that...
The camp seemed to be the only safe place for me, its my sanctuary
I don't have wk's simplistic and drive
I don't have nv's street smart and quick thinking
i don't have yk's christma and maturity.
neither do i not have fabien's sociability and compromissary
nor yl's patience and calmness
certainly not ef's easy going and helpfulness
and bryan's witiness and flexibility.
I only know how to run.....
Catching the falling leaves ...[8:29 PM]
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coward
AT times when i met with a problem, i'll just make myself busy with some other stuff and hopefully everything will be alright when i come back. It works everytime in camp and poor wk, yk or nv will be the helping me to settle the stuff. Yes, that is what i'll be doing.
I'll go to find a job and make myself so busy that there will be absolutely no reason for anyone to come to remind me of the problems. Shoo!! don't come near me..
I don't want to be involve in this maelstorm.
Sue me for being such a coward.
AT times when i met with a problem, i'll just make myself busy with some other stuff and hopefully everything will be alright when i come back. It works everytime in camp and poor wk, yk or nv will be the helping me to settle the stuff. Yes, that is what i'll be doing.
I'll go to find a job and make myself so busy that there will be absolutely no reason for anyone to come to remind me of the problems. Shoo!! don't come near me..
I don't want to be involve in this maelstorm.
Sue me for being such a coward.
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:11 PM]
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
The prodigal
I've been involved with 2 out of 3 things i always hate and tried to avoid as much as possible this morning.
Business and car.
The car part was easy, cos it involved dealing with people whom are neutral to me. Its not completely settled yet though, but with my ability should be no problem, i hope.
The business part made me stared blankly into space for the past few hrs. I am totally at a lost. These people we were dealing were rather hostile. I really don't know what method i should use to tackle. Worst of all, i really got no idea what is going on, who is lying who is not. Everything was happening so fast. Was so helpless. Me and my big ego of wanting to help and set things right...
The only words i'm hearing from within me are 'act, don't react'
What will you do?
Suddenly rmbed of the 'invisible hands' theory i've learnt from econs back in aj. I guss no matter how much anyone can try, they can never be freed from these invisible hands.
I've been involved with 2 out of 3 things i always hate and tried to avoid as much as possible this morning.
Business and car.
The car part was easy, cos it involved dealing with people whom are neutral to me. Its not completely settled yet though, but with my ability should be no problem, i hope.
The business part made me stared blankly into space for the past few hrs. I am totally at a lost. These people we were dealing were rather hostile. I really don't know what method i should use to tackle. Worst of all, i really got no idea what is going on, who is lying who is not. Everything was happening so fast. Was so helpless. Me and my big ego of wanting to help and set things right...
The only words i'm hearing from within me are 'act, don't react'
What will you do?
Suddenly rmbed of the 'invisible hands' theory i've learnt from econs back in aj. I guss no matter how much anyone can try, they can never be freed from these invisible hands.
Catching the falling leaves ...[3:38 PM]
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
happy birthday jb!
Went to nus with jb with the itinary of going 'open house' with jc and eugchua as the tour guide.
Of cos, we have the hidden agenda of giving jb his present (which i got for him at wallet shop just hrs before)
We met at 430pm. Maybe it was coincidental, but we all wore the same colour shirt. Jonathan, who was the surprise guest, wore red. Typical singaporeans i would say.
jc was very shi bai when it comes to nus. Apparently, for the past yr, he only walked 10m radius out of his medicine fac.... Ended up jc joined us and became the tourist.
We walked around the library, canteen and jon's room. It was the time i've been into a hostel room. Jb and i were wondering how our life will be next yr... quite scary to the thought of us having to study till late at night. Despite the encouragement from eugchua, jc and jon, we were persistent not to be sharing the same room.Its so horrible to be facing the same person since py, its like knowing him all my life... phew...
Certainly, jb was surprised that we got him a present that he was too shy to show his face in the photo. We even embarrassed him by singing birthday song loud loud at the corridor... bwahahaha!
Attitude wallet for people showing attitude...
tada!! at last he was willing to make a pose!
Come to think of it, we never really celebrated jb birthday before, got for the past few yrs we all having major exams at this period.
(went back my previous blog to see what we did to celebrate last yr, it was just a meet out session of us play hide and seek at lot 1 and thats where i seen jc's double)
Today is inspirational for my next post..
Went to nus with jb with the itinary of going 'open house' with jc and eugchua as the tour guide.
Of cos, we have the hidden agenda of giving jb his present (which i got for him at wallet shop just hrs before)
We met at 430pm. Maybe it was coincidental, but we all wore the same colour shirt. Jonathan, who was the surprise guest, wore red. Typical singaporeans i would say.
jc was very shi bai when it comes to nus. Apparently, for the past yr, he only walked 10m radius out of his medicine fac.... Ended up jc joined us and became the tourist.
We walked around the library, canteen and jon's room. It was the time i've been into a hostel room. Jb and i were wondering how our life will be next yr... quite scary to the thought of us having to study till late at night. Despite the encouragement from eugchua, jc and jon, we were persistent not to be sharing the same room.Its so horrible to be facing the same person since py, its like knowing him all my life... phew...
Certainly, jb was surprised that we got him a present that he was too shy to show his face in the photo. We even embarrassed him by singing birthday song loud loud at the corridor... bwahahaha!
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Attitude wallet for people showing attitude...
tada!! at last he was willing to make a pose!
Come to think of it, we never really celebrated jb birthday before, got for the past few yrs we all having major exams at this period.
(went back my previous blog to see what we did to celebrate last yr, it was just a meet out session of us play hide and seek at lot 1 and thats where i seen jc's double)
Today is inspirational for my next post..
Catching the falling leaves ...[9:16 PM]
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Monday, November 13, 2006
unease
I know i'm screwing up my plans and schedule.
But i went to meet up with jb, ec and jc in the end.
The entire meeting was fun as always, but i was filled with the sense of unease as if something bad will happen. Maybe i'm just feeling guilty for not following my schedule, nonetheless i don't think we will have the chance to meet up again from this wed onwards after jb start working.
It was my first time eating buffet with jb. I guess i've met my match in eating! he has been with me all these years and i didn't even realise it. We ate dim sum buffet from 1130 to 2pm at city hall.
bought a new wallet for myself. Its the last request from my boss to go change my wallet. Actually he begged me to do so. I can't possibly turn hm down, can i?
During the shopping, we decided to buy a wallet for jb's birthday! The one that got 'attitude'
I know i'm screwing up my plans and schedule.
But i went to meet up with jb, ec and jc in the end.
The entire meeting was fun as always, but i was filled with the sense of unease as if something bad will happen. Maybe i'm just feeling guilty for not following my schedule, nonetheless i don't think we will have the chance to meet up again from this wed onwards after jb start working.
It was my first time eating buffet with jb. I guess i've met my match in eating! he has been with me all these years and i didn't even realise it. We ate dim sum buffet from 1130 to 2pm at city hall.
bought a new wallet for myself. Its the last request from my boss to go change my wallet. Actually he begged me to do so. I can't possibly turn hm down, can i?
During the shopping, we decided to buy a wallet for jb's birthday! The one that got 'attitude'
Catching the falling leaves ...[8:26 PM]
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
oh!
Was so tired today. All i wanted was to rest awhile after posting my last post, ended up falling into a deep sleep. I totally forgotten the time, if i've ate dinner or where am i, all i wanted was to sleep. Its just shows how over exhausted i was, i pushed myself too hard.
But for some reasons, i suddenly rmbed that i'll be having my 2nd link bridge run later at 8am. I didn't even set my alarm or pack my stuff. Thats when i hopped out of my bed. Then i suddenly realised that i didn't bathe upon coming back home from kayaking just now...
Was so tired today. All i wanted was to rest awhile after posting my last post, ended up falling into a deep sleep. I totally forgotten the time, if i've ate dinner or where am i, all i wanted was to sleep. Its just shows how over exhausted i was, i pushed myself too hard.
But for some reasons, i suddenly rmbed that i'll be having my 2nd link bridge run later at 8am. I didn't even set my alarm or pack my stuff. Thats when i hopped out of my bed. Then i suddenly realised that i didn't bathe upon coming back home from kayaking just now...
Catching the falling leaves ...[1:45 AM]
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
thank you! thank you
Went to navin's house finally for the ord party! What impressed me the most was the bookshelves along the staircase. It just looked so cool.
There are some who didn't attend the party though invited.
Part of me was sad for they wasn't able to see the effort made by us, part of me was glad they didn't come.
As mentioned, i hate celebrations at night.
That was not the way i wanted it to end. Its just not right. I don't want it to end it this way.
For that, thankyou chris and yeo and the others for not coming.
From time to time, I'm jealous of ganesha for making such a grand departure. People came to see him off for no other reason but to see him one last time.
For as far as i can rmb, i've only slept over twice at other people's house. And just so happen both where at an indian family.
Went to navin's house finally for the ord party! What impressed me the most was the bookshelves along the staircase. It just looked so cool.
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There are some who didn't attend the party though invited.
Part of me was sad for they wasn't able to see the effort made by us, part of me was glad they didn't come.
As mentioned, i hate celebrations at night.
That was not the way i wanted it to end. Its just not right. I don't want it to end it this way.
For that, thankyou chris and yeo and the others for not coming.
From time to time, I'm jealous of ganesha for making such a grand departure. People came to see him off for no other reason but to see him one last time.
For as far as i can rmb, i've only slept over twice at other people's house. And just so happen both where at an indian family.
Catching the falling leaves ...[7:18 PM]
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Friday, November 10, 2006
secrets
Someone whom i've never met for months msged me suddenly and told me a secret. Since its a secret, i'll let this guy be S.
I missed S alot, we never have the chance to officially say goodbye. I'm proud to be one to know the secret and because of that, i get to know him better and understand why he behaved in the past. S is someone who fell deeply into the darkness.
There are just so many things for me to tell him personally, i want to help him with all the power i have.
Why are those who are suffering i know are those who are so kind hearted?
"i was surprised. The frightened little me always wanted how to swim through the vast open sea. But you didn't even want a ship. You wanted wings. I think that you are amazing"
I missed S alot, we never have the chance to officially say goodbye. I'm proud to be one to know the secret and because of that, i get to know him better and understand why he behaved in the past. S is someone who fell deeply into the darkness.
There are just so many things for me to tell him personally, i want to help him with all the power i have.
Why are those who are suffering i know are those who are so kind hearted?
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:39 PM]
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
Cable wakeboarding at Batam!!
I'm so good, i must say.
I was the first to master the technique of wakeboarding! Followed by remy and chorming during the next 2 hr or so. Navin, bryan and fabian took additional 3 hrs to gasp the idea but was still unable to complete 1 round.
Always thought batam is a place for those invisible trade, was rather surprise when i was approached by the others abt such activity other there. Best of all, its only $80 for the entire day! (inclusive of boat fare, lunch, equipment and transport). The one we have in singapore is like $30-40 per hr or 2....
We first started off with knee board, which according to yuehan is easier and to let us have a feel.
Others tried and do like 10-20 times or so.
I managed to complete the course in the 3rd time.
This was when i 'upgrade' to the standing one.
The normal wakeboard was much harder then i thought. Fell down like 20 times or so before i gasps its technique and went round and round. Until i got tired and tried the ramp.
I was so ambitious. others were still struggling with the basic and i'm already practicing the stunts and other advance boards..
The water there was digusting!! super erxin... got those clay mud. Got tapole and worms. So if we were stranded at the no3 check point, good luck to u. That was the worst place to be stranded. The place is muddy with sharp weeds and rocks all around... What was good was the if we stranded too far away from the starting point, they have a motorbike to fetch you back!!
For the first time in 10 long yrs, i've got onto a motobike. That was the most scary part of the event i think..
I'm so good, i must say.
I was the first to master the technique of wakeboarding! Followed by remy and chorming during the next 2 hr or so. Navin, bryan and fabian took additional 3 hrs to gasp the idea but was still unable to complete 1 round.
Always thought batam is a place for those invisible trade, was rather surprise when i was approached by the others abt such activity other there. Best of all, its only $80 for the entire day! (inclusive of boat fare, lunch, equipment and transport). The one we have in singapore is like $30-40 per hr or 2....
We first started off with knee board, which according to yuehan is easier and to let us have a feel.
Others tried and do like 10-20 times or so.
I managed to complete the course in the 3rd time.
This was when i 'upgrade' to the standing one.
The normal wakeboard was much harder then i thought. Fell down like 20 times or so before i gasps its technique and went round and round. Until i got tired and tried the ramp.
I was so ambitious. others were still struggling with the basic and i'm already practicing the stunts and other advance boards..
The water there was digusting!! super erxin... got those clay mud. Got tapole and worms. So if we were stranded at the no3 check point, good luck to u. That was the worst place to be stranded. The place is muddy with sharp weeds and rocks all around... What was good was the if we stranded too far away from the starting point, they have a motorbike to fetch you back!!
For the first time in 10 long yrs, i've got onto a motobike. That was the most scary part of the event i think..
photos!:
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/power_ranger23/album?.dir=/a3b5scd&.src=ph&.tok=pho4eyFBbtTQX.PuCatching the falling leaves ...[11:45 PM]
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Teacher! teacher!!
If i've gone for the sabana expedition, i'll never get to meet dharma and Lim. If I never got to meet them, I'll never approach him to get my recommendation letter. And if thats the case, I'll never be approached for the attachment to bring a group of 110 primary 6 children down for kayaking...
At first i thought, '110 children only, very easy lah! no problem!'
I've immediately changed my mind when i was bombarded with "TEachER! teacHER!! why this? what that??"
The initial rafting up was the worst. My instruction was clear and simple. "To hold on each other's kayak side by side, don't let go."
Just as i went to help the others, the next moment everyone was on their own. It was horrible.
Told them to help each other to carry the boats, they all in the sea playing with water.
Everyone I met during the journey were screaming for my help either"teacher! help me!" or " teacher cannot paddle any more!" or "teacher i want to rest..."
When i was first approached regarding this attachment we were jokingly saying,"wah! these are only primary school leh, kayak so long later got phobia how?"
I guess, i am the one who is having phobia at that time.
Phew!!
I don't know if its coincidental that when i got back home today, i received a letter from moe telling me abt my application of being a relief teacher. 'No Not! primary school' i hope...
side story:
It was at the punggol campsite when we experienced something 'dirty'. My first time being so close to experiencing such things. However, i only got to know what happened after everything was over. The story was something like a malay boy was playing around at the banana tree in the garden when he suddenly acted strangely and started attacking, eyes were different, his voice changed (definately not puberty). Of course at time time i didn't know. All i saw was the malay teacher brought the boy into our room and got him to sleep inside.
It was this morning when i woke up (i was at the 2nd deck) and i looked at his face (he sleeping on 1st deck). He suddenly opened his eyes and used a scary glare to stare at me. I didn't know abt the situation, at first i tot he opens his eyes when he sleeps. I continued to stare at him into his eyes. (You know those ah beng stare you stare me thingy? yah something liddat) After a few seconds, he 'woke up', glanced around as if asking himself 'where am i?' and he walked out of the room.
Haiz... i always wanted to experience something supernatural like that, but its just infront of me yet i didn't know until everything was over. To make me happy, somesay when i stared at him, the spirit got shoo away while others said that it was transferred... hmm....
At first i thought, '110 children only, very easy lah! no problem!'
I've immediately changed my mind when i was bombarded with "TEachER! teacHER!! why this? what that??"
The initial rafting up was the worst. My instruction was clear and simple. "To hold on each other's kayak side by side, don't let go."
Just as i went to help the others, the next moment everyone was on their own. It was horrible.
Told them to help each other to carry the boats, they all in the sea playing with water.
Everyone I met during the journey were screaming for my help either"teacher! help me!" or " teacher cannot paddle any more!" or "teacher i want to rest..."
When i was first approached regarding this attachment we were jokingly saying,"wah! these are only primary school leh, kayak so long later got phobia how?"
I guess, i am the one who is having phobia at that time.
Phew!!
I don't know if its coincidental that when i got back home today, i received a letter from moe telling me abt my application of being a relief teacher. 'No Not! primary school' i hope...
side story:
It was at the punggol campsite when we experienced something 'dirty'. My first time being so close to experiencing such things. However, i only got to know what happened after everything was over. The story was something like a malay boy was playing around at the banana tree in the garden when he suddenly acted strangely and started attacking, eyes were different, his voice changed (definately not puberty). Of course at time time i didn't know. All i saw was the malay teacher brought the boy into our room and got him to sleep inside.
It was this morning when i woke up (i was at the 2nd deck) and i looked at his face (he sleeping on 1st deck). He suddenly opened his eyes and used a scary glare to stare at me. I didn't know abt the situation, at first i tot he opens his eyes when he sleeps. I continued to stare at him into his eyes. (You know those ah beng stare you stare me thingy? yah something liddat) After a few seconds, he 'woke up', glanced around as if asking himself 'where am i?' and he walked out of the room.
Haiz... i always wanted to experience something supernatural like that, but its just infront of me yet i didn't know until everything was over. To make me happy, somesay when i stared at him, the spirit got shoo away while others said that it was transferred... hmm....
Catching the falling leaves ...[8:34 PM]
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Tengda, the guy with many names... ...
I've many alias.
Different identity to fit to different situation
At times i might just forget who i really am.
That was long time ago.
My boss joined me during april this year.
We have the same attitude of being 'who under me, i'll treat them well; Those who are not i will not care."
He was in deep thoughts (as always,thinking of some irrelvant stuff) when he approached me and asked,'what shld i call you?'
He continued thinking, smoking as well and i ignored him.
Perhaps he wants to call me easily, or perhaps he understands the importance of being rmbed easily by name in our job, or both? I will never know... ...
"Alfred sounds nice!" he said, finally,' hmm.. yes yes... '
The more he says it out, the more he likes it.
That was the very first present i got from him.
The only one i think.
Names are given by others, not chosen by yourself. Thats what makes it so special.
Its the very first gift any parents can give to the child.
As long as you have a name, you have been loved.
Alfred is a nice name.
I've many alias.
Different identity to fit to different situation
At times i might just forget who i really am.
That was long time ago.
My boss joined me during april this year.
We have the same attitude of being 'who under me, i'll treat them well; Those who are not i will not care."
He was in deep thoughts (as always,thinking of some irrelvant stuff) when he approached me and asked,'what shld i call you?'
He continued thinking, smoking as well and i ignored him.
Perhaps he wants to call me easily, or perhaps he understands the importance of being rmbed easily by name in our job, or both? I will never know... ...
"Alfred sounds nice!" he said, finally,' hmm.. yes yes... '
The more he says it out, the more he likes it.
That was the very first present i got from him.
The only one i think.
Names are given by others, not chosen by yourself. Thats what makes it so special.
Its the very first gift any parents can give to the child.
As long as you have a name, you have been loved.
Alfred is a nice name.
Catching the falling leaves ...[4:28 PM]
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