Tuesday, January 30, 2007
he har... x focus
My brother is always in pale in respect to me in all aspects.... ok lah... maybe not all... most...
In terms of endurance, personality, intelligence etc. He can never be as good as me. Polly cos he had never experience (much) failure before.
Nonetheless, there is one thing that he is undeniably better off.
He has more courage than me.
At times, i'm jealous of him being able to do stuff that i myself took years to muster the courage to do it. He har.... just cannot stand him...
Speaking about courage, there are two people from the unit that gave me the courage to do stuff which i've never thought i have the ability to.
One of them his birthday is on 8th feb.
The other one is on 20th april... (i think)...
I'm already started preparing something nice for them today...
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I can multitask quite well, i feel.
But i dont like to do so, given the chance.
Wouldn't be able to focus on everything when that happened.
I don't like to lose focus. It deprives me from the 100% satisfaction when everything was over. And also i'll start blaming on the other stuffs if the task is not done properly
That is why i've postponed my original schedule (once again) by another 2.5 weeks.
There is just so much things to be done, but so little time left. In fact, noticed i only got 2 hours for myself from 10pm to 12 everyday.
There are people who searched beyond the stars for answers, but they never realised that the answers they are searching for are around them all these while. And before they knew it. They are back to where they started but this time with more power than ever.
归零出发再了解！
My brother is always in pale in respect to me in all aspects.... ok lah... maybe not all... most...
In terms of endurance, personality, intelligence etc. He can never be as good as me. Polly cos he had never experience (much) failure before.
Nonetheless, there is one thing that he is undeniably better off.
He has more courage than me.
At times, i'm jealous of him being able to do stuff that i myself took years to muster the courage to do it. He har.... just cannot stand him...
Speaking about courage, there are two people from the unit that gave me the courage to do stuff which i've never thought i have the ability to.
One of them his birthday is on 8th feb.
The other one is on 20th april... (i think)...
I'm already started preparing something nice for them today...
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I can multitask quite well, i feel.
But i dont like to do so, given the chance.
Wouldn't be able to focus on everything when that happened.
I don't like to lose focus. It deprives me from the 100% satisfaction when everything was over. And also i'll start blaming on the other stuffs if the task is not done properly
That is why i've postponed my original schedule (once again) by another 2.5 weeks.
There is just so much things to be done, but so little time left. In fact, noticed i only got 2 hours for myself from 10pm to 12 everyday.
There are people who searched beyond the stars for answers, but they never realised that the answers they are searching for are around them all these while. And before they knew it. They are back to where they started but this time with more power than ever.
归零出发再了解！
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:23 PM]
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Sunday, January 28, 2007
why??
I really don't understand why some people existed in this world in the first place.
They exist in this world just to make the world an unhappy place.
Moreover, their existence will just lead their young ones to follow their footsteps and become what they are.
They are far below the level of the little people....They don't have integrity and honour, two of the things that makes the soul beautiful...
(btw. 'little people' bears no derogatory conotation, really)
Its the environment that makes you who u are, some would say..
Some are forced by environment.... but that doesnt make their actions right. Right? and its even not right to blame on their environment for their actions.
At times i really wanted to thank the person in my previous life for the things he/she had done to allow me to be in this higher level of the karmic ladder. Whatever he/she had done, it must be something very great and honorable. It has to be.
I'm very fortunate in a lot of aspects. The problem with me in the past was that i didn't make good use of the opportunities when i had the chance. This is the most important lesson i've learnt during my jc period. If i've learnt that earlier, everything now will be totally different... ...
Well, its not too late for me.
These few months have been a quest for answers for me. Not the 'how', but why?
I really don't understand why some people existed in this world in the first place.
They exist in this world just to make the world an unhappy place.
Moreover, their existence will just lead their young ones to follow their footsteps and become what they are.
They are far below the level of the little people....They don't have integrity and honour, two of the things that makes the soul beautiful...
(btw. 'little people' bears no derogatory conotation, really)
Its the environment that makes you who u are, some would say..
Some are forced by environment.... but that doesnt make their actions right. Right? and its even not right to blame on their environment for their actions.
At times i really wanted to thank the person in my previous life for the things he/she had done to allow me to be in this higher level of the karmic ladder. Whatever he/she had done, it must be something very great and honorable. It has to be.
I'm very fortunate in a lot of aspects. The problem with me in the past was that i didn't make good use of the opportunities when i had the chance. This is the most important lesson i've learnt during my jc period. If i've learnt that earlier, everything now will be totally different... ...
Well, its not too late for me.
These few months have been a quest for answers for me. Not the 'how', but why?
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:52 PM]
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SHE
I've spent ALOT yesterday
In fact, i took two taxi rides during my rush from place to place.
The day session was really fulfilling, IT was my frist time taking a kayaking session with minimal help from others. And i was lucky to be take the better group. My partner, valerie, took the group that had more problematic students.
They simply can't go left when they are supposed to go right.
Just as i was giving a sigh of relief, I was told that THOSE people will be giving a second chance by joining my other session next week. In short, I'll be teaching them myself personally. Oh dear! lets hope i don't vomit blood. Valarie vomitted quite alot yesterday.
EVening session was SHE!
I really enjoyed their concert eventhough i'm just a last min fan whom have to go round to do research before daring to enter their concert.
Nonetheless, i've sreamed even louder for their special guest than what i did during the entire concert combined. I wasn't joking when i said i wanted to go for the most expensive seats when the special guest next hold their concert...
I've spent ALOT yesterday
In fact, i took two taxi rides during my rush from place to place.
The day session was really fulfilling, IT was my frist time taking a kayaking session with minimal help from others. And i was lucky to be take the better group. My partner, valerie, took the group that had more problematic students.
They simply can't go left when they are supposed to go right.
Just as i was giving a sigh of relief, I was told that THOSE people will be giving a second chance by joining my other session next week. In short, I'll be teaching them myself personally. Oh dear! lets hope i don't vomit blood. Valarie vomitted quite alot yesterday.
EVening session was SHE!
I really enjoyed their concert eventhough i'm just a last min fan whom have to go round to do research before daring to enter their concert.
Nonetheless, i've sreamed even louder for their special guest than what i did during the entire concert combined. I wasn't joking when i said i wanted to go for the most expensive seats when the special guest next hold their concert...
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:40 PM]
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
Little People
The little people think that answers are simplified.
The little people are trapped inside the system that they have no chance to think of things beyond.
The little people were unable to enjoy luxuries, hence they spend their entire life fighting for and thinking about them.
The little people doesn't want to be like the rest of the little people, they want to be different.
The little people feel that their achievements made were great.
The little people fight for trival stuff while run away from reality
Little people, little people...
The little people think that answers are simplified.
The little people are trapped inside the system that they have no chance to think of things beyond.
The little people were unable to enjoy luxuries, hence they spend their entire life fighting for and thinking about them.
The little people doesn't want to be like the rest of the little people, they want to be different.
The little people feel that their achievements made were great.
The little people fight for trival stuff while run away from reality
Little people, little people...
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:27 AM]
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
Whats your problem?
I just don't like it when stephen keeps on making it sounds that he is the only one who is having the worst problem.
As if no one has their own problem. Just because he feels that his situation is worst, treat everyone who seems happier to be immature and haven't experience life at all.
Keeps on saying that those immature people like to look down on him. But isn't him looking down on others as well?
I really wanted to tell him straight on the face that he is not the only one. Just because we don't want to show out our sufferings, doesn't mean we never experienced it before nor even understand it all all.
But i know if i said that, i'll just blurt all the problems out and we will spend the entire evening comparing how miserable we are.
Thats totally not my style..
Only my fans in this blog get a hint of what i've been going through. Nonetheless, i didn't said out what is it. Just using this as an outlet to vent out the frustration.
TO him, i'm just a spoilt rich kid who got the support of the family and stuff. To everyone else, my world is just like a beautiful bubble that can never be burst.
There are people who experienced lost.
Everytime i think about this, i'll think of S and J.
They are my guide whenever my life turned haywire.
(rmb S and J? the ones who shared The Secret? )
Both of them experienced so much, yet they are still able to face their problems. Of cos, at times they will wonder 'why is it me?'(they have all the reasons to do so), and started venting their frustration out to me. But they will quickily recover back and shine even brighter than before.
I wanted to be just like them.
I've never shared my problems to anyone else. Not even to yc or jb.
But i've always told S and J that they were not alone.
I just don't like it when stephen keeps on making it sounds that he is the only one who is having the worst problem.
As if no one has their own problem. Just because he feels that his situation is worst, treat everyone who seems happier to be immature and haven't experience life at all.
Keeps on saying that those immature people like to look down on him. But isn't him looking down on others as well?
I really wanted to tell him straight on the face that he is not the only one. Just because we don't want to show out our sufferings, doesn't mean we never experienced it before nor even understand it all all.
But i know if i said that, i'll just blurt all the problems out and we will spend the entire evening comparing how miserable we are.
Thats totally not my style..
Only my fans in this blog get a hint of what i've been going through. Nonetheless, i didn't said out what is it. Just using this as an outlet to vent out the frustration.
TO him, i'm just a spoilt rich kid who got the support of the family and stuff. To everyone else, my world is just like a beautiful bubble that can never be burst.
There are people who experienced lost.
Everytime i think about this, i'll think of S and J.
They are my guide whenever my life turned haywire.
(rmb S and J? the ones who shared The Secret? )
Both of them experienced so much, yet they are still able to face their problems. Of cos, at times they will wonder 'why is it me?'(they have all the reasons to do so), and started venting their frustration out to me. But they will quickily recover back and shine even brighter than before.
I wanted to be just like them.
I've never shared my problems to anyone else. Not even to yc or jb.
But i've always told S and J that they were not alone.
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:37 PM]
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
break through
For the past 3 days, i've didn't escape reality by playing my backgammon while at that place.
In fact, i'm beginning to like the feeling. Seriously.
A very good start i must say.
I'm not lying when i said that if i can deal with this, i can deal with anything.
Made a showhand for piece-of-love yesterday. And i'm proud that i finally had the courage to do so. It has to end this way.
For the past 3 days, i've didn't escape reality by playing my backgammon while at that place.
In fact, i'm beginning to like the feeling. Seriously.
A very good start i must say.
I'm not lying when i said that if i can deal with this, i can deal with anything.
Made a showhand for piece-of-love yesterday. And i'm proud that i finally had the courage to do so. It has to end this way.
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:53 PM]
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
rule of third x recruitment
I made an advertisement on today's ST and newpaper. Its cost about $60 for just that few lines of words.
But i got results.
IT has been months since so many people called me in a day. Easily around 30 plus i would say. They started calling me from 10am all the way till 8pm.. phew..
Using the 1/3 rule, 10 of them were not applicable i have to shoo them off. For some of them i was nice enough to tell them 'i dont need you!' whereas for some i was so mean to give them false hope 'i'll consider first, will call you back later!". Just so fun trying different method to turn them down... :p
Ended up only 20 people were told to come down for MY interview.
But of cos, using the 1/3 rule. Only around 7 people turned up.
I guess i can finally understand why every company needs an interview. It really tell those people 'hey! i'm the Boss down here, you better show respect', and the feeling of people looking desperately at you is really very shuang.
I can roughly recall the names of those people i've interviewed today off hand and wat they did. But due to privacy reasons i wouldn't share much. Scolded myself for not using more varieties of method to turn them down, was super nice to turn them straight on their face on the spot.
Then once again with the 1/3 rule, i only managed to get only 2. These 2 are not really perfect i would say. But i'll just have to make do. Lets pray those who promised to come down for interview tml will do so, hope lah...
I made an advertisement on today's ST and newpaper. Its cost about $60 for just that few lines of words.
But i got results.
IT has been months since so many people called me in a day. Easily around 30 plus i would say. They started calling me from 10am all the way till 8pm.. phew..
Using the 1/3 rule, 10 of them were not applicable i have to shoo them off. For some of them i was nice enough to tell them 'i dont need you!' whereas for some i was so mean to give them false hope 'i'll consider first, will call you back later!". Just so fun trying different method to turn them down... :p
Ended up only 20 people were told to come down for MY interview.
But of cos, using the 1/3 rule. Only around 7 people turned up.
I guess i can finally understand why every company needs an interview. It really tell those people 'hey! i'm the Boss down here, you better show respect', and the feeling of people looking desperately at you is really very shuang.
I can roughly recall the names of those people i've interviewed today off hand and wat they did. But due to privacy reasons i wouldn't share much. Scolded myself for not using more varieties of method to turn them down, was super nice to turn them straight on their face on the spot.
Then once again with the 1/3 rule, i only managed to get only 2. These 2 are not really perfect i would say. But i'll just have to make do. Lets pray those who promised to come down for interview tml will do so, hope lah...
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:39 PM]
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
Wave of Rage
Times flies when you are having fun!
There are just so many things from my trip to Ramunia to share. Really wanted to write in every single details of what had happen which i've always been doing.
Soon all my fans will just run away, yes i know that. Thats why i'm keeping this short.(correction: i'm TRYING to keep this short)
Day 1:
Met up at changi jetty. Off we made our way to malaysia and took taxi to our sunrise ramunia resort.
This is my room! Sharing with alan and adrian. Very Kampong style i would say. But dont let the exteral fool you.
They got beds and bathing facillities (eventhough the water will suddenly disappear while bathing). SEE! got air con somemore! Notice the bottom left hand corner of the bed picture, its the television!
Soon after lunch, we move off to Long beach! This is the lorry we had been traveling on for the past 4 days!
Being grouped together with rayyan and dickson. Can you believe it? dickson, along with fanzhe, is only 17! He is from TJC (fanzhe is from vj).
AREN'T THEY SUPPOSED TO BE SCHOOLING?? They really know how to enjoy life... Excused from school to come for this.
Anyway, the waves were 'baby' according to the instructors. Nonetheless, the partner i'm supposed to be with for the next 3 days, Cliff, got dislocation in his shoulder while paddling in the sea. Commendable stuff was that he was able to swim back to shore from that distance with the boat WITH a dislocated shoulder!! OUT HE GO to the hospital and out of course.
Rather scary from the though of it. A baby wave can cause someone to dislocate. What about their normal waves??!!
DAy 2:
Without a partner i've been hoping from groups to groups, see who tired then go where to support. I found myself more together with chye heng and patrick. Cos seeing how big the wave is that day, chye heng dont dare to take the risk.
I want to be in one piece for the chinese new year ...
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Ended up me, being the youngest, to be the one riding the waves. Patrick tried, but not much.
Lim lost on of his spectacle's lens during the practice, 2 guys got their toe/ankle injured, some girls got sand in their eyes...ouch...
Day 3:
It was horrible.
Quite a handful of us got seasick. Seriously, all of us are experience paddlers, to announce seasick in singapore would be rather embarrassing. I must say the waves was much worst than the past 2 days.
Another 5 more mins in the water i could just vomit everything out.
It was the first time i've did a wet exit. Meaning, when you are capsized, you are unable flick up on ur own and had to abort your craft. Was pinned down in between the boat and the shore, can't move at all... can't breath...To make things worst, the strong waves made it impossible for me to adjust to a better position. Horrible...
Day 4:
The wave was the largest of all.
Patrick and I gave everything we got. It wasn't easy to lauch out fromshore. The waves as terribly high, and when it come crashing u from above you will be
"Oh my..."
Before u can continue, the waves will just drouse off everything... Then imagine having 5-6 such waves in a row.....
I'm so good...
Times flies when you are having fun!
There are just so many things from my trip to Ramunia to share. Really wanted to write in every single details of what had happen which i've always been doing.
Soon all my fans will just run away, yes i know that. Thats why i'm keeping this short.(correction: i'm TRYING to keep this short)
Day 1:
Met up at changi jetty. Off we made our way to malaysia and took taxi to our sunrise ramunia resort.
This is my room! Sharing with alan and adrian. Very Kampong style i would say. But dont let the exteral fool you.
They got beds and bathing facillities (eventhough the water will suddenly disappear while bathing). SEE! got air con somemore! Notice the bottom left hand corner of the bed picture, its the television!
Soon after lunch, we move off to Long beach! This is the lorry we had been traveling on for the past 4 days!
Being grouped together with rayyan and dickson. Can you believe it? dickson, along with fanzhe, is only 17! He is from TJC (fanzhe is from vj).
AREN'T THEY SUPPOSED TO BE SCHOOLING?? They really know how to enjoy life... Excused from school to come for this.
Anyway, the waves were 'baby' according to the instructors. Nonetheless, the partner i'm supposed to be with for the next 3 days, Cliff, got dislocation in his shoulder while paddling in the sea. Commendable stuff was that he was able to swim back to shore from that distance with the boat WITH a dislocated shoulder!! OUT HE GO to the hospital and out of course.
Rather scary from the though of it. A baby wave can cause someone to dislocate. What about their normal waves??!!
DAy 2:
Without a partner i've been hoping from groups to groups, see who tired then go where to support. I found myself more together with chye heng and patrick. Cos seeing how big the wave is that day, chye heng dont dare to take the risk.
I want to be in one piece for the chinese new year ...
.
Ended up me, being the youngest, to be the one riding the waves. Patrick tried, but not much.
Lim lost on of his spectacle's lens during the practice, 2 guys got their toe/ankle injured, some girls got sand in their eyes...ouch...
Day 3:
It was horrible.
Quite a handful of us got seasick. Seriously, all of us are experience paddlers, to announce seasick in singapore would be rather embarrassing. I must say the waves was much worst than the past 2 days.
Another 5 more mins in the water i could just vomit everything out.
It was the first time i've did a wet exit. Meaning, when you are capsized, you are unable flick up on ur own and had to abort your craft. Was pinned down in between the boat and the shore, can't move at all... can't breath...To make things worst, the strong waves made it impossible for me to adjust to a better position. Horrible...
Day 4:
The wave was the largest of all.
Patrick and I gave everything we got. It wasn't easy to lauch out fromshore. The waves as terribly high, and when it come crashing u from above you will be
"Oh my..."
Before u can continue, the waves will just drouse off everything... Then imagine having 5-6 such waves in a row.....
I'm so good...
Catching the falling leaves ...[9:05 PM]
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
A good day
Today is a good day
The car thing which i've been settling since last yr came to a close when they send a cheque over. One less thing to worry about.
Went to ganesha's house to collect some goods.
He's such an idiot not giving any number of his brother or something to call to confirm.
So i tried my luck to see if anyone's home.
His brother just came back home... Goods collected. I'm so lucky. Today is a good day.
Discussed with mother about my impulsive decision. She was more than happy to let me go uni earlier. High chance is that i'll be going to uni earlier i supposed. Mother's adviced is always the best. My path has been even clearer than before.
HAha... jus as i finished typing the last sentence, April called me telling me about the coaching attachment stuff. Good news after good news...She can't stress how lucky i am.
I don't believe in the layman term 'luck'. For me, luck is to be able to catch the opportunity (with the adequate preparation of cos)
Today is a good day
Today is a good day
The car thing which i've been settling since last yr came to a close when they send a cheque over. One less thing to worry about.
Went to ganesha's house to collect some goods.
He's such an idiot not giving any number of his brother or something to call to confirm.
So i tried my luck to see if anyone's home.
His brother just came back home... Goods collected. I'm so lucky. Today is a good day.
Discussed with mother about my impulsive decision. She was more than happy to let me go uni earlier. High chance is that i'll be going to uni earlier i supposed. Mother's adviced is always the best. My path has been even clearer than before.
HAha... jus as i finished typing the last sentence, April called me telling me about the coaching attachment stuff. Good news after good news...She can't stress how lucky i am.
I don't believe in the layman term 'luck'. For me, luck is to be able to catch the opportunity (with the adequate preparation of cos)
Today is a good day
Catching the falling leaves ...[3:25 PM]
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I'm packing my bag, i'm ready to go!
I'm AT HOME TODAY!
Mother promised to cook dinner.
Pork's soup if i've heard correctly.
Can't wait.... Been a long time since i've eaten any decent home cooked meal.
Everytime whenever i have a choice between camp and home. I'll choose camp.
But for now, if its a choice between home and IT. Home ...
I can't emphasis how cruel he can be when it comes to forcing me to make a choice. I was very sure that i'll start university at july. Confirmed. Been braggin abt it to everyone i've known for the past 2 yrs.
Thanks to him, i've started wondering... Wouldn't it nice if i can start uni sooner?
But no,i'm not behaving like her...
i'm not running away from my problems. I'm just being an opportunist!
My original plan was to start uni during august.
This will give me sufficient time to do the things i always wanted to do so i will be able to put everything i've got when uni starts.
Thanks to him, I'm starting think even more in depth. Called alan just now. He himself was also in a dilemma to change his course....
Choices Choices...
I'm AT HOME TODAY!
Mother promised to cook dinner.
Pork's soup if i've heard correctly.
Can't wait.... Been a long time since i've eaten any decent home cooked meal.
Everytime whenever i have a choice between camp and home. I'll choose camp.
But for now, if its a choice between home and IT. Home ...
I can't emphasis how cruel he can be when it comes to forcing me to make a choice. I was very sure that i'll start university at july. Confirmed. Been braggin abt it to everyone i've known for the past 2 yrs.
Thanks to him, i've started wondering... Wouldn't it nice if i can start uni sooner?
But no,i'm not behaving like her...
i'm not running away from my problems. I'm just being an opportunist!
My original plan was to start uni during august.
This will give me sufficient time to do the things i always wanted to do so i will be able to put everything i've got when uni starts.
Thanks to him, I'm starting think even more in depth. Called alan just now. He himself was also in a dilemma to change his course....
Choices Choices...
Catching the falling leaves ...[2:36 PM]
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Mixed feelings
U try living a life with LOVE and HATE interwined.
A second u will be smiling sweetly and will be grumpy at the next...
Many things experienced and want to share today! cos i'll be going away soon!
I wasn't exaggerating when i told yongcheng that i've been eating either kfc or burger king or mac donalds for the past 3 weeks for both lunch and dinner. Can't rmb when was the last time i've eaten any homecooked meal. Think i can start another documentary of me eating fast food and see what becomes of me after 1 month...Seriously.
YC said that i've spend so much cos fast food ma. BUT if u really know how to order, u can order a set meal with drink, vegetable and filling burger for around $5. Even cheaper then from hawker centre where there are no drinks and vege..
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Do you know the ICE CREAm man?
apparently, the OTHERS where a family . Father, mother and daugther.
The guy u see in the photo is actaully the daugther's boyfriend.
4 AGAINST 1 !!
I observed their strategy today.
They worked in two groups. One group will stick like 10 steps away from the uncle, the other will be at 100 m away. They change their shift accordingly...
Info was got from Ben. He seems to be like those Jiang Hu people who know quite alot of things in toapayoh.. in fact the boyfriend is one of his many friends...
Anyway, i've purposely walked past the invaders stall and walked straight to Uncle to buy icecream today. Then quickly walked past them again to show them that they are not supported! Uncle was so happy when he saw me walking past them to buy icecream from him.
Dont worry! you have my support! i'll add your icecream to my everyday meal if thats the case!
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I've lost control!
I seldom throw my temper around, was always in control of the feelings i'm showing. Or shld i say hide it very well. I've been trained from circumstances. And in a way, i'm trained to have a very strong will.
Nonetheless, i nearly lost control of myself today.
There are two china people who seemed to be making trouble. Under normal circumstances, i'll just smile, talk to them nicely and critically. For this case, my face changed. Luckily i pulled someone into the picture to handle it in time. Else i'll just lose it and things will get horrible...
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making a Scene !
Went to a spectacle shop to buy spectacle band for my overseas trip just now.
"Do you have any spectacle band?" I asked promptly.
"Yes we have!"She replied, seaching her drawer for one and took it out to show me.
"EEE!!!" i exclaimed via reflex upon seeing such an ugly spectacle band, so loudly that the entire shop customer stopped and laughed.
3 seconds later...
"oops! sorry sorry..."i apologised upon realised what i've done, covering my mouth,"wasn't on purpose one."
A second u will be smiling sweetly and will be grumpy at the next...
Many things experienced and want to share today! cos i'll be going away soon!
I wasn't exaggerating when i told yongcheng that i've been eating either kfc or burger king or mac donalds for the past 3 weeks for both lunch and dinner. Can't rmb when was the last time i've eaten any homecooked meal. Think i can start another documentary of me eating fast food and see what becomes of me after 1 month...Seriously.
YC said that i've spend so much cos fast food ma. BUT if u really know how to order, u can order a set meal with drink, vegetable and filling burger for around $5. Even cheaper then from hawker centre where there are no drinks and vege..
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Do you know the ICE CREAm man?
apparently, the OTHERS where a family . Father, mother and daugther.
The guy u see in the photo is actaully the daugther's boyfriend.
4 AGAINST 1 !!
I observed their strategy today.
They worked in two groups. One group will stick like 10 steps away from the uncle, the other will be at 100 m away. They change their shift accordingly...
Info was got from Ben. He seems to be like those Jiang Hu people who know quite alot of things in toapayoh.. in fact the boyfriend is one of his many friends...
Anyway, i've purposely walked past the invaders stall and walked straight to Uncle to buy icecream today. Then quickly walked past them again to show them that they are not supported! Uncle was so happy when he saw me walking past them to buy icecream from him.
Dont worry! you have my support! i'll add your icecream to my everyday meal if thats the case!
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I've lost control!
I seldom throw my temper around, was always in control of the feelings i'm showing. Or shld i say hide it very well. I've been trained from circumstances. And in a way, i'm trained to have a very strong will.
Nonetheless, i nearly lost control of myself today.
There are two china people who seemed to be making trouble. Under normal circumstances, i'll just smile, talk to them nicely and critically. For this case, my face changed. Luckily i pulled someone into the picture to handle it in time. Else i'll just lose it and things will get horrible...
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making a Scene !
Went to a spectacle shop to buy spectacle band for my overseas trip just now.
"Do you have any spectacle band?" I asked promptly.
"Yes we have!"She replied, seaching her drawer for one and took it out to show me.
"EEE!!!" i exclaimed via reflex upon seeing such an ugly spectacle band, so loudly that the entire shop customer stopped and laughed.
3 seconds later...
"oops! sorry sorry..."i apologised upon realised what i've done, covering my mouth,"wasn't on purpose one."
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OH! before i forget! another eye candy for fans of T...
This was taken much easier to take compared to the previous one
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:57 PM]
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Monday, January 15, 2007
Do you know the Ice Cream man?
He has been there for at least 20 yrs.
Yes! the ice cream man.
I rmb that there was a time when his ice cream were sold at 40cent per small cup (70cent for bigger one), 60 cents for cone and 60 cents for bread. The cups he used were blue... Got pictures of ufo if i'm not wrong.
Now everything is $1.
Its now white plastic cups.
Those are the only difference after all these time working in Toa Payoh Central everyday for the past 20 yrs.
There was a time, Sister and i would visit him everyday.
HEY!
THIS is HIS spot at Toa Payoh Central. Its a well known fact...
Just 10 meters away from him was this guy (u can find him at the background for the first picture)
Isn't this sickening? Can't he find somewhere else?
And 50m away there was another lady selling icecream too! disgusting...
This guy and lady like knew each other already. Think they forming a alliance.... Shoo! out you go! i'm not buying anything from both of you! So wat you both are Walls ice cream?
To all my fans! do help me advertise for the original toa payoh ice cream man hor!! thanks!
He has been there for at least 20 yrs.
Yes! the ice cream man.
I rmb that there was a time when his ice cream were sold at 40cent per small cup (70cent for bigger one), 60 cents for cone and 60 cents for bread. The cups he used were blue... Got pictures of ufo if i'm not wrong.
Now everything is $1.
Its now white plastic cups.
Those are the only difference after all these time working in Toa Payoh Central everyday for the past 20 yrs.
There was a time, Sister and i would visit him everyday.
HEY!
THIS is HIS spot at Toa Payoh Central. Its a well known fact...
Just 10 meters away from him was this guy (u can find him at the background for the first picture)
Isn't this sickening? Can't he find somewhere else?
And 50m away there was another lady selling icecream too! disgusting...
This guy and lady like knew each other already. Think they forming a alliance.... Shoo! out you go! i'm not buying anything from both of you! So wat you both are Walls ice cream?
To all my fans! do help me advertise for the original toa payoh ice cream man hor!! thanks!
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:53 PM]
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
boulevard of broken dreams
I yearn for oblivion. Just want everything to end...
Can't go on anymore.
Been trapped in the decision whether to give up (again) or to continue for the whole of today.
I can accept it, but just cannot live with it.
“是我错，没能够啊把自己变得成熟。
伤口，那么多，已经不怕再痛.
没地方可以再受伤了。
没什么,转身以后我会练成护体神功”
adapted from a song tt jb dislikes. The only thing abt this song that i like is the above line.....
I'm not cut out for this. I was born to do so much more. Its a well known fact all along.
1 more month with this. Despite wat i've said. I'm determined to go through at least 1 more month. There are so many things in this world i know 'how', but just dont understand 'why'. I need to understand.
I yearn for oblivion. Just want everything to end...
Can't go on anymore.
Been trapped in the decision whether to give up (again) or to continue for the whole of today.
I can accept it, but just cannot live with it.
“是我错，没能够啊把自己变得成熟。
伤口，那么多，已经不怕再痛.
没地方可以再受伤了。
没什么,转身以后我会练成护体神功”
adapted from a song tt jb dislikes. The only thing abt this song that i like is the above line.....
I'm not cut out for this. I was born to do so much more. Its a well known fact all along.
1 more month with this. Despite wat i've said. I'm determined to go through at least 1 more month. There are so many things in this world i know 'how', but just dont understand 'why'. I need to understand.
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:59 PM]
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Friday, January 12, 2007
I'm a musician!
Was having sms conversation with yuehan today. Suddenly, he provoked me with something which i've forgotten (and i lz to refer) that cause me to reply,"You have no idea who you are speaking to. I'm a MUSICIAN in case you don't know my background"
I regreted saying that.
Music is something i've forsaken sometime ago for something even more meaningful. Not that i don't like music anymore, its just that i'm too ashame to 'face the music' once again. Basically, i got no rights to say i'm a musician anymore. I thinki i'll feel much better if i say 'i WAS a musician'.
Music is the only thing in this world, i feel, that can really stops time...
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For some reasons, I always got this feeling that the world's weather would always change according to my mood. My feeling for the past few weeks was haywire i would say due to the below mentioned. No wonder its snowing when its not supposed to and raining weirdly...etc etc... For that i'm sorry..
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Jas will hate me forever if she sees the below pics...
Cant you just see the similarities??
Know jas will surely throw blood after seeing this. But i just can't help it! haha... With the hair being grown abit longer and a better photographer, i simply can't see any difference!
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Oh before i forget, i almost met up with a traffic accident today. Lucky father warned me 2 seconds earlier. Everything ended off with my vehicle skidding on the wet road...
Was having sms conversation with yuehan today. Suddenly, he provoked me with something which i've forgotten (and i lz to refer) that cause me to reply,"You have no idea who you are speaking to. I'm a MUSICIAN in case you don't know my background"
I regreted saying that.
Music is something i've forsaken sometime ago for something even more meaningful. Not that i don't like music anymore, its just that i'm too ashame to 'face the music' once again. Basically, i got no rights to say i'm a musician anymore. I thinki i'll feel much better if i say 'i WAS a musician'.
Music is the only thing in this world, i feel, that can really stops time...
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For some reasons, I always got this feeling that the world's weather would always change according to my mood. My feeling for the past few weeks was haywire i would say due to the below mentioned. No wonder its snowing when its not supposed to and raining weirdly...etc etc... For that i'm sorry..
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Jas will hate me forever if she sees the below pics...
Cant you just see the similarities??
Know jas will surely throw blood after seeing this. But i just can't help it! haha... With the hair being grown abit longer and a better photographer, i simply can't see any difference!
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Oh before i forget, i almost met up with a traffic accident today. Lucky father warned me 2 seconds earlier. Everything ended off with my vehicle skidding on the wet road...
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:13 PM]
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
The talk
Dear Sonic,
I've made the first move. Tried talking to Ben and along with him, was wensheng, another guy whom i've been seeing for weeks but we never talk. This was my first time ever communicate with anyone associate with IT. Well, its a good start.
Seems funny at the thought of it. The thought of how simple and easy things actually is was made so complicated just because someone was unwilling to try.
Ben's highest certification is sec 3. He is already 25 yrs old. Upon asking if he is satisfied and worried abt his life since he has no stable income for the past... 10 yrs, he replied,"i'm not a person who can sit still in one place. I would prefer a carefree life to try out something new everytime. As long as the money is enough to sustain myself its good enough already. Then all my girlfriends i've got so far all got job, so i don't need to worry about her as well. Well, because of my nature, i've got to know many people and contacts....."
Sounds awfully familar, doesnt it? I myself have said something similar to someone before. Regarding $$ is not the most important thing for me... blah blah..
Nonetheless, I was still shocked. He was trying to say, for the past 10 yrs of his life, he has been hoping around doing temporary job like selling things and stuff. Seriously, i can't imagine.. And for his future? he get a career woman as his wife soon and become a househusband? maybe its feasible...
Little children will always go home by themselves when they are tired after playing...
Wensheng, on the other hand, is only 16. He was already planning of going for chef course next yr to learn cooking and maybe start a career from there. Opening branches of his own stall or work in a restaurant...
Their goals of life are so different from everyone else i've known, yet so simple... ...
Oh yah, before i forget to mention to you. I think i saw ken just now...I don't know... i think its him, i hope its him... but i really don't know. Ken was my very first best friend in pya all the way to primary4. It must be him, has to be. He was with his ahbeng friends unfortunately. Amazing how things turn out the way it is now. We started off the same, for 5 yrs in primary school, we eat, sit together. And even went to Ms seet indivdually to complain 'ken beat me' or/and 'tengda beat me'.
The girl we bullied for 5 yrs, Shi Ting will always be part of our memories forever. I know it will (cos it starting to become like a guilt for me.. haha).
Called back the unit's ops room a few times to settle some stuff today, had a chat with weixiang, junliang and leong. They are just so funny.
Anyway, with all the things that happened today combined. I got a sudden inspiration which might just work out. And if that happens, i'll become someone whom i always hate... But not to forget, 'before everything, including hate, there was love"
Haha. you must be thinking that i'm uttering nonsense already. Tun mehr leid! i just need to sort out my thoughts.
Do continue to give me your support!
Cheers,
TaDa!!
Dear Sonic,
I've made the first move. Tried talking to Ben and along with him, was wensheng, another guy whom i've been seeing for weeks but we never talk. This was my first time ever communicate with anyone associate with IT. Well, its a good start.
Seems funny at the thought of it. The thought of how simple and easy things actually is was made so complicated just because someone was unwilling to try.
Ben's highest certification is sec 3. He is already 25 yrs old. Upon asking if he is satisfied and worried abt his life since he has no stable income for the past... 10 yrs, he replied,"i'm not a person who can sit still in one place. I would prefer a carefree life to try out something new everytime. As long as the money is enough to sustain myself its good enough already. Then all my girlfriends i've got so far all got job, so i don't need to worry about her as well. Well, because of my nature, i've got to know many people and contacts....."
Sounds awfully familar, doesnt it? I myself have said something similar to someone before. Regarding $$ is not the most important thing for me... blah blah..
Nonetheless, I was still shocked. He was trying to say, for the past 10 yrs of his life, he has been hoping around doing temporary job like selling things and stuff. Seriously, i can't imagine.. And for his future? he get a career woman as his wife soon and become a househusband? maybe its feasible...
Little children will always go home by themselves when they are tired after playing...
Wensheng, on the other hand, is only 16. He was already planning of going for chef course next yr to learn cooking and maybe start a career from there. Opening branches of his own stall or work in a restaurant...
Their goals of life are so different from everyone else i've known, yet so simple... ...
Oh yah, before i forget to mention to you. I think i saw ken just now...I don't know... i think its him, i hope its him... but i really don't know. Ken was my very first best friend in pya all the way to primary4. It must be him, has to be. He was with his ahbeng friends unfortunately. Amazing how things turn out the way it is now. We started off the same, for 5 yrs in primary school, we eat, sit together. And even went to Ms seet indivdually to complain 'ken beat me' or/and 'tengda beat me'.
The girl we bullied for 5 yrs, Shi Ting will always be part of our memories forever. I know it will (cos it starting to become like a guilt for me.. haha).
Called back the unit's ops room a few times to settle some stuff today, had a chat with weixiang, junliang and leong. They are just so funny.
Anyway, with all the things that happened today combined. I got a sudden inspiration which might just work out. And if that happens, i'll become someone whom i always hate... But not to forget, 'before everything, including hate, there was love"
Haha. you must be thinking that i'm uttering nonsense already. Tun mehr leid! i just need to sort out my thoughts.
Do continue to give me your support!
Cheers,
TaDa!!
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:59 PM]
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Spiritual War
Dear Sonic,
I've entered the world of darkness, a place that I told myself never to be at as much as possible. It is the only place that can really suck away all my smiles and happiness.
But i know this is the only way and only chance i have to face this last hurdle that i've never got the courage to do so all my life. In fact, if i can go this, i can do ANYTHING. Seriously. That is why, I have to go through this by myself.
How are you doing over there? Been quite sometime since anyone has written to you i supposed. Hows everything? Lets hope everything goes well from your side. You are always much fortunate than anyone else i've ever known.
I've acquainted with someone yesterday, his name is Ben. All he wanted was to be friendly by shaking my hand and to ask for my name. Nonetheless, i acted like a jerk.
"Oh there isn't a need to know my name, no point lah...haha!" i replied with a very disgusting fake smile. He has already rised his hand up to shake, yet i turned him down bluntly. I've acted so rude and nasty. All he wanted was to be friendly...
Although, I've mentioned to you before, 'I only hang around with people i feel comfortable with, and will not even talk to those otherwise...' , this point has changed sometime ago....
Nonetheless, just because he is associated with This place, I was willing to give up all my values i've accumulated all these time.
I know i am in the wrong, but are my actions justified? What do you think?
I need more time,I guess.
Be going for overseas course next week. I can't feel the excitement (eventhough i tried my best to psycho myself by telling everyone 'So exciting!') due to my current situation.
For this time, i've changed my strategy. Instead of using 110% of what i've got (which i've always do), i'm puting in 80%, conserving my strength... Knowing I have the time to spare and I've failed numerous times. i'm not going to fight it head on this time. I'm keeping my feelings neutral, i dont want any happiness conjured out in my mind to be absorbed away..For sure, I'll get it right this time. I'm determined to do so.
Hope you understand why i dont' have the time to meet up with you.
Its a Spiritual War between me and IT. It has always been so in the past, in the present and maybe in the future as well.
Please give me your blessings, that is all i always needed from my fans.
Do take care of yourself!
Cheers,
tada!
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Ms Maria Tan was my german maths teacher back in mshs. Back in sec 1, she made her english class to do joural by telling them to have an imaginary friend something like the above. Sonic was yongcheng's imaginary friend.
Dear Sonic,
I've entered the world of darkness, a place that I told myself never to be at as much as possible. It is the only place that can really suck away all my smiles and happiness.
But i know this is the only way and only chance i have to face this last hurdle that i've never got the courage to do so all my life. In fact, if i can go this, i can do ANYTHING. Seriously. That is why, I have to go through this by myself.
How are you doing over there? Been quite sometime since anyone has written to you i supposed. Hows everything? Lets hope everything goes well from your side. You are always much fortunate than anyone else i've ever known.
I've acquainted with someone yesterday, his name is Ben. All he wanted was to be friendly by shaking my hand and to ask for my name. Nonetheless, i acted like a jerk.
"Oh there isn't a need to know my name, no point lah...haha!" i replied with a very disgusting fake smile. He has already rised his hand up to shake, yet i turned him down bluntly. I've acted so rude and nasty. All he wanted was to be friendly...
Although, I've mentioned to you before, 'I only hang around with people i feel comfortable with, and will not even talk to those otherwise...' , this point has changed sometime ago....
Nonetheless, just because he is associated with This place, I was willing to give up all my values i've accumulated all these time.
I know i am in the wrong, but are my actions justified? What do you think?
I need more time,I guess.
Be going for overseas course next week. I can't feel the excitement (eventhough i tried my best to psycho myself by telling everyone 'So exciting!') due to my current situation.
For this time, i've changed my strategy. Instead of using 110% of what i've got (which i've always do), i'm puting in 80%, conserving my strength... Knowing I have the time to spare and I've failed numerous times. i'm not going to fight it head on this time. I'm keeping my feelings neutral, i dont want any happiness conjured out in my mind to be absorbed away..For sure, I'll get it right this time. I'm determined to do so.
Hope you understand why i dont' have the time to meet up with you.
Its a Spiritual War between me and IT. It has always been so in the past, in the present and maybe in the future as well.
Please give me your blessings, that is all i always needed from my fans.
Do take care of yourself!
Cheers,
tada!
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Ms Maria Tan was my german maths teacher back in mshs. Back in sec 1, she made her english class to do joural by telling them to have an imaginary friend something like the above. Sonic was yongcheng's imaginary friend.
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:53 PM]
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Wheres the corpse?
I swear i've killed the cockroach and beetle with insecticide the night before. It wasn't a dream. Just that i've left it there cos i was so tired and went to sleep (it was 2am plus then). I went back to the toilet the next day and the corpses were gone!! Nope! i've asked mother, she didn't do it. And i don't think anyone else in the family will be so brave (and can be bothered) to help me to remove a dead cockroach and beetle from MY toilet.
Lets hope their relatives didn't come to take back their bodies to give a proper burial and at the same time, plotting their REVENGE!!
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I must confess! I've been addicted to playing my hp's solitare. Been playing with it every opportunity i've got. Its not something i'm proud of. Who was the one saying i got no time to waste? hahah..
i've successfully forced myself to delete away the game from my hp today. To my horror, i've found another game that was right below it all these while. Backgammon!!
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jh revealed her blog to me. I'm so honoured (yes, i'm supposed to). She is a person of great depth as i've always thought. In fact, we shared some common views about something.
Will be posting another philosophical post soon "Capture the deception of beauty" it is in line with the "deception of beauty" post i've wrote long time ago... The one about hypocrite and being so fake? rmb?
I swear i've killed the cockroach and beetle with insecticide the night before. It wasn't a dream. Just that i've left it there cos i was so tired and went to sleep (it was 2am plus then). I went back to the toilet the next day and the corpses were gone!! Nope! i've asked mother, she didn't do it. And i don't think anyone else in the family will be so brave (and can be bothered) to help me to remove a dead cockroach and beetle from MY toilet.
Lets hope their relatives didn't come to take back their bodies to give a proper burial and at the same time, plotting their REVENGE!!
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I must confess! I've been addicted to playing my hp's solitare. Been playing with it every opportunity i've got. Its not something i'm proud of. Who was the one saying i got no time to waste? hahah..
i've successfully forced myself to delete away the game from my hp today. To my horror, i've found another game that was right below it all these while. Backgammon!!
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jh revealed her blog to me. I'm so honoured (yes, i'm supposed to). She is a person of great depth as i've always thought. In fact, we shared some common views about something.
Will be posting another philosophical post soon "Capture the deception of beauty" it is in line with the "deception of beauty" post i've wrote long time ago... The one about hypocrite and being so fake? rmb?
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:26 AM]
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Monday, January 08, 2007
being a slacker
In Tengda's life, being a slacker for just 1 day can be such a blessing.
he literally stopped thinking.
And before he realised, it was already 2am the next day!
He spent half of his time during the day staring blankly at the computer screen, listening to SHE songs. AT the later part of the evening he played backgammon with yongcheng for the very first time! played 5 times, won 5 times!
During the earlier part of the day. He went out with alan to malaysia for a hair cut (plus wash and treatment), shopping and eating good food session. Since when was the last time have you seen him being so relax for the entire day?
07 jan can be considered an important day to him. No wonder he needs to have a good rest to celebrate. He worked and strained himself so much
6 more months... only 6 more months...
In Tengda's life, being a slacker for just 1 day can be such a blessing.
he literally stopped thinking.
And before he realised, it was already 2am the next day!
He spent half of his time during the day staring blankly at the computer screen, listening to SHE songs. AT the later part of the evening he played backgammon with yongcheng for the very first time! played 5 times, won 5 times!
During the earlier part of the day. He went out with alan to malaysia for a hair cut (plus wash and treatment), shopping and eating good food session. Since when was the last time have you seen him being so relax for the entire day?
07 jan can be considered an important day to him. No wonder he needs to have a good rest to celebrate. He worked and strained himself so much
6 more months... only 6 more months...
Catching the falling leaves ...[2:03 AM]
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Friday, January 05, 2007
Encounter
I can't emphasise how strong i can be drawn towards people of unique, interesting character. It is just like a moth being attracted to the light. There was one girl i've got to know during my days in njc. She was one of them. Really wanted to know her better but got no chance to do so. I've totally forgotten about her after i left jc.
Today (just now), I've met with another girl for the first time, she is 2 yrs younger than me. We started chatting for 10 mins until she started asking which jc i was from.
"then do you know XXXX from njc?" she asked.
"dont know," i replied,"njc so many people, cannot rmb names one."
"oh, she's my sister, looked almost like me,"she continued.
It was at that instant i knew who she was referring to. Talking about coincidence. I should have already guessed that while i was talking to her. There were awful similiarities between them i must say.
Too bad i'll be busy, so the next time i'll be seeing her is 3 weeks from now... I really missed this sensation, been years since i've last have it. Well, its a start...
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war and beauty is on channel u 10pm! In fact they got some analysis on the characters of the show on the papers today, similar to how i analysed ru fei and lady hou.
The more i think of the show and real life, the more i feel of how true it is for this statement "before everything there was love". Its like the two extremes go hand in hand. Meaning the stronger your love, the stronger your hate.
ie.1) Because u love your family s much, so if they are being killed, you will hate the murderer as much.
2)There are quarrel and fights that happen, but it must be because that they love something else that gave them the will to fight.
3) Even its like unhappiness within the family. There must be love that forms the family in the first place. Right?
I know someone who is filled with hate, so base on my theory, this person is overflowed with love..
Then if you can easily hate someone, you most prob also easily love someone.
I never really hate anyone, no wonder i got no love...
I can't emphasise how strong i can be drawn towards people of unique, interesting character. It is just like a moth being attracted to the light. There was one girl i've got to know during my days in njc. She was one of them. Really wanted to know her better but got no chance to do so. I've totally forgotten about her after i left jc.
Today (just now), I've met with another girl for the first time, she is 2 yrs younger than me. We started chatting for 10 mins until she started asking which jc i was from.
"then do you know XXXX from njc?" she asked.
"dont know," i replied,"njc so many people, cannot rmb names one."
"oh, she's my sister, looked almost like me,"she continued.
It was at that instant i knew who she was referring to. Talking about coincidence. I should have already guessed that while i was talking to her. There were awful similiarities between them i must say.
Too bad i'll be busy, so the next time i'll be seeing her is 3 weeks from now... I really missed this sensation, been years since i've last have it. Well, its a start...
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war and beauty is on channel u 10pm! In fact they got some analysis on the characters of the show on the papers today, similar to how i analysed ru fei and lady hou.
The more i think of the show and real life, the more i feel of how true it is for this statement "before everything there was love". Its like the two extremes go hand in hand. Meaning the stronger your love, the stronger your hate.
ie.1) Because u love your family s much, so if they are being killed, you will hate the murderer as much.
2)There are quarrel and fights that happen, but it must be because that they love something else that gave them the will to fight.
3) Even its like unhappiness within the family. There must be love that forms the family in the first place. Right?
I know someone who is filled with hate, so base on my theory, this person is overflowed with love..
Then if you can easily hate someone, you most prob also easily love someone.
I never really hate anyone, no wonder i got no love...
Catching the falling leaves ...[9:59 PM]
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
War and Beauty
"Bounded by four walls, destiny has been sealed.
Flowers and weather change in the hands of fate.
Wanting for love to let my spirit take flight,
pity that it has already been filled with hate.
May someone who understands my sorrow,
to live a life for me
and to take my wish to soar"
The serial, War and Beauty, (which will be on show in channel u soon) ended of with a poem (which i tried my best to translate and recall) which sounded like this. I watched the show twice myself, and i really like the plotting... Even i couldnt think of such scheme...
The show is about how concubines in ancient china lived a life of being scheming and tenacious towards one another to obtain the favour of the king. Everyone has their own agenda to scheme against one another and during the uncontrollable act of fighting for power, everyone soon realised that everyone of them is the loser.
It made me wondered that if it is really "Before everything, before all problems that arises, there was love".... love is the cause of pain ba...The irony is, they cannot show whom they truely love, all they can do is to keep it deep in their heart.
I really like the character of lady Ru aka ru fei niang niang. Reminds me of myself. For a start, she doesn't rely on ghost and spirits to get things done, she believe in herself. She strongly believed that no matter how uncontrollable the situation may be, destiny still lies in her hands. She was the only one who dares to go against the emperess head on. Lady Hou wasn't bad either, she also used the 'acting blur' tactics... very useful indeed...
Nonetheless, this show is just a smaller version of what is going on in the society. The ratrace. Being scheming is just a nasty word for being an opportuntist. This leads back to the post of 'freedom' i've post sometime ago.
You dont need 4 walls to have your destiny sealed.... ...
"May someone who understands my sorrow, to live a life for me and to take my wish to soar..." I love this line the most. There are people I know whose lifes are totally beyond their control, they ended up living in regret and sorrow. How they wish they can have second chance. Nonetheless, its too late for them.
For that, i'm living my life to its fullest for myself and along with it, i'm living a life that you always dream of, for you my dear.
"Bounded by four walls, destiny has been sealed.
Flowers and weather change in the hands of fate.
Wanting for love to let my spirit take flight,
pity that it has already been filled with hate.
May someone who understands my sorrow,
to live a life for me
and to take my wish to soar"
The serial, War and Beauty, (which will be on show in channel u soon) ended of with a poem (which i tried my best to translate and recall) which sounded like this. I watched the show twice myself, and i really like the plotting... Even i couldnt think of such scheme...
The show is about how concubines in ancient china lived a life of being scheming and tenacious towards one another to obtain the favour of the king. Everyone has their own agenda to scheme against one another and during the uncontrollable act of fighting for power, everyone soon realised that everyone of them is the loser.
It made me wondered that if it is really "Before everything, before all problems that arises, there was love".... love is the cause of pain ba...The irony is, they cannot show whom they truely love, all they can do is to keep it deep in their heart.
I really like the character of lady Ru aka ru fei niang niang. Reminds me of myself. For a start, she doesn't rely on ghost and spirits to get things done, she believe in herself. She strongly believed that no matter how uncontrollable the situation may be, destiny still lies in her hands. She was the only one who dares to go against the emperess head on. Lady Hou wasn't bad either, she also used the 'acting blur' tactics... very useful indeed...
Nonetheless, this show is just a smaller version of what is going on in the society. The ratrace. Being scheming is just a nasty word for being an opportuntist. This leads back to the post of 'freedom' i've post sometime ago.
You dont need 4 walls to have your destiny sealed.... ...
"May someone who understands my sorrow, to live a life for me and to take my wish to soar..." I love this line the most. There are people I know whose lifes are totally beyond their control, they ended up living in regret and sorrow. How they wish they can have second chance. Nonetheless, its too late for them.
For that, i'm living my life to its fullest for myself and along with it, i'm living a life that you always dream of, for you my dear.
Catching the falling leaves ...[11:17 PM]
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started off with a dumpling....
IT All started off with a Dumpling
i solve my problem by making friends, not enemy. Really.
Nonetheless, when situation is beyond friendly terms, i'll definitely use drastic measures to get things done. I've scolded an auntie at a bus stop before, I've gotten physical with a guy before. Hard to imagine right? haha... Its part of me that i've been trying to supress ba.
It all started off when i was sitting at toa payoh's noodle store (the one jy first introduced to me years ago) waiting for someone to take my other. I began observing how the 'chef' cook the dumplings for their dumpling noodles. It was then one of the dumplings dropped on the fall.
Discreetly and immediately, he picked it up. Holding it on one hand, he started cooking with another.
He must be busy with the cooking, most prob he will wait after his cooking then he will go dispose the dumpling or at least wash it clean before serving, i thought and continued observing.
Halfway during this action, he quickly threw the dumpling onto the tray of ready to serve, freshly cooked dumplings. My eyes widened. He didn't realise he was being watched all these time through the glass wall.
This is getting too far, i need to do something, i told myself.
Thus, when i ordered a dumpling noodle on purpose. He must be thought a lesson.
When lunch was served, i quickily pointed out of what i've saw. That got the boss and his wife's attention.
'i saw him puting back the dumplings back to the tray after it had dropped onto the floor!' i announced deliberately, trying to get the attention of other dumpling eaters as well, 'this is so unhygienic!"
At first, the boss tried to be defensive, "most prob drop on the table, the table very ok one"
Nevertheless, i knew what i saw. Floor means floor and pointed it to the exact position.
"Sorry sorry, then i'll change one for you,' the wife said, trying to resolve the situation, thinking that i'm a difficult customer.
"cannot! all the dumplings all mixed up already, no difference mah. how i know which one is dirty?"
Silence came. And i knew i was in the position to make any demand. However, the kind hearted me felt that they realised that they were in the wrong, i decided to make it a case close.
"its ok, money i still pay. But cannot like that lah."
I immediately knew i made the wrong move once i sat down. Cos no one did anything to the rest of the tray of dumplings. The poisonious dumpling may still be in the tray, yet they didn't even try to wash them clean!
That was when i started plotting.
Should i create another scene by running to another table of dumpling eaters to stop them from consuming? i wondered. I know i have the power to make them throw away all the dumplings on the try which about 30 plates of dumpling noodles and i know i can if i want.
Started thinking of wat to rebut if they argue"wash the whole tray can liao ma"
"If you can consume a wash dumpling after it was dropped on the pile of shit then i will not say anything!" i thought.
My imagination ran haywire. Although of the endless possibilities i what i can do. (it doesn't require watching War and Beauty, to be as tenacious as me.) I decided be nice and just to gave them a very big hint of a dissatisfied customer....To eat dumpling noodle with the dumplings. Ended up leaving behind 4 freshly cooked (and perhaps 1 poisonous) dumplings on the plate. Wait till the boss' wife in near enough to look before walking away.
I was hoping that they will wash all the dumplings on the tray, thats the least they can do. but while typing, i started to wonder. what if the lady boss go instruct the people to take my 4 dumplings to re serve to others again? Oh my...
IT All started off with a Dumpling
i solve my problem by making friends, not enemy. Really.
Nonetheless, when situation is beyond friendly terms, i'll definitely use drastic measures to get things done. I've scolded an auntie at a bus stop before, I've gotten physical with a guy before. Hard to imagine right? haha... Its part of me that i've been trying to supress ba.
It all started off when i was sitting at toa payoh's noodle store (the one jy first introduced to me years ago) waiting for someone to take my other. I began observing how the 'chef' cook the dumplings for their dumpling noodles. It was then one of the dumplings dropped on the fall.
Discreetly and immediately, he picked it up. Holding it on one hand, he started cooking with another.
He must be busy with the cooking, most prob he will wait after his cooking then he will go dispose the dumpling or at least wash it clean before serving, i thought and continued observing.
Halfway during this action, he quickly threw the dumpling onto the tray of ready to serve, freshly cooked dumplings. My eyes widened. He didn't realise he was being watched all these time through the glass wall.
This is getting too far, i need to do something, i told myself.
Thus, when i ordered a dumpling noodle on purpose. He must be thought a lesson.
When lunch was served, i quickily pointed out of what i've saw. That got the boss and his wife's attention.
'i saw him puting back the dumplings back to the tray after it had dropped onto the floor!' i announced deliberately, trying to get the attention of other dumpling eaters as well, 'this is so unhygienic!"
At first, the boss tried to be defensive, "most prob drop on the table, the table very ok one"
Nevertheless, i knew what i saw. Floor means floor and pointed it to the exact position.
"Sorry sorry, then i'll change one for you,' the wife said, trying to resolve the situation, thinking that i'm a difficult customer.
"cannot! all the dumplings all mixed up already, no difference mah. how i know which one is dirty?"
Silence came. And i knew i was in the position to make any demand. However, the kind hearted me felt that they realised that they were in the wrong, i decided to make it a case close.
"its ok, money i still pay. But cannot like that lah."
I immediately knew i made the wrong move once i sat down. Cos no one did anything to the rest of the tray of dumplings. The poisonious dumpling may still be in the tray, yet they didn't even try to wash them clean!
That was when i started plotting.
Should i create another scene by running to another table of dumpling eaters to stop them from consuming? i wondered. I know i have the power to make them throw away all the dumplings on the try which about 30 plates of dumpling noodles and i know i can if i want.
Started thinking of wat to rebut if they argue"wash the whole tray can liao ma"
"If you can consume a wash dumpling after it was dropped on the pile of shit then i will not say anything!" i thought.
My imagination ran haywire. Although of the endless possibilities i what i can do. (it doesn't require watching War and Beauty, to be as tenacious as me.) I decided be nice and just to gave them a very big hint of a dissatisfied customer....To eat dumpling noodle with the dumplings. Ended up leaving behind 4 freshly cooked (and perhaps 1 poisonous) dumplings on the plate. Wait till the boss' wife in near enough to look before walking away.
I was hoping that they will wash all the dumplings on the tray, thats the least they can do. but while typing, i started to wonder. what if the lady boss go instruct the people to take my 4 dumplings to re serve to others again? Oh my...
Catching the falling leaves ...[2:59 PM]
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change my skin?
haha...
got several comments from fans all over regarding the previous skin.
Some say the reading part very small, very hard to read. Some say the format cannot be displayed on library's computer.
I'm always very democractic. Yes, i am. So i'll just change the skin to make it more user friendly.
Personally, i still prefer the everything on one page format. Less sopisicated but reader friendly.
As far as i can see, the skin is not really meaningful, hence not a very ideal for me. Nonetheless, it signifies the theme i'm having for the beginning of this year, thats why it has been used. Either i'll find some other more meaningful skin or i'll make it look meaninful ba... haha
haha...
got several comments from fans all over regarding the previous skin.
Some say the reading part very small, very hard to read. Some say the format cannot be displayed on library's computer.
I'm always very democractic. Yes, i am. So i'll just change the skin to make it more user friendly.
Personally, i still prefer the everything on one page format. Less sopisicated but reader friendly.
As far as i can see, the skin is not really meaningful, hence not a very ideal for me. Nonetheless, it signifies the theme i'm having for the beginning of this year, thats why it has been used. Either i'll find some other more meaningful skin or i'll make it look meaninful ba... haha
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:20 AM]
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Monday, January 01, 2007
The awakening
I've never felt so clean and pure than before
Went for countdown at esplanade yestereday to watch the fireworks display with jockbiao, yongcheng and a very very old primay school classmate whom i've nv talked to before, wai kit.
The prelude was so -_- that i really don't know what to say. Maybe its done so on purpose so that we will like the actual fireworks.
I am glad to be able to start my most important year with them.
Normally, during this type of occasion, people would normally go to wine bars, pubs or clubs to drink till they drop. Even I thought that this senario was possible for the first time in our group. We went to Clark Quay but we just couldnt make ourselves do such stuff. That is why i always like to hang around with them. No matter how deep i've plunged myself into the maelstorm, as long as i'm with them, it feels as though we are empowered with strength. There is no longer a need to intoxicate ourself to numb the problems or to get 'happiness' out of it.... So pure so pure.
Then for the entire night we started walking. We walked to MOS, to serveral other pubs (which we exited immediately after entering), walked to zouk, walked to china town, to eat buk ku teh, walked to outram, to bugis, to kwan yin temple. Along the way, we saw everybody got drunk and some were vomiting along the road. Ugly Ugly.... ...
We walked until 530am when the first bus came and got home.
ALL OF US overslept in our respective buses... haha...
This is the awakening.
(ps, ganesha called me at 8am to sent me his greetings but i was so asleep that i dont know what i said to him... haha)
I've never felt so clean and pure than before
Went for countdown at esplanade yestereday to watch the fireworks display with jockbiao, yongcheng and a very very old primay school classmate whom i've nv talked to before, wai kit.
The prelude was so -_- that i really don't know what to say. Maybe its done so on purpose so that we will like the actual fireworks.
I am glad to be able to start my most important year with them.
Normally, during this type of occasion, people would normally go to wine bars, pubs or clubs to drink till they drop. Even I thought that this senario was possible for the first time in our group. We went to Clark Quay but we just couldnt make ourselves do such stuff. That is why i always like to hang around with them. No matter how deep i've plunged myself into the maelstorm, as long as i'm with them, it feels as though we are empowered with strength. There is no longer a need to intoxicate ourself to numb the problems or to get 'happiness' out of it.... So pure so pure.
Then for the entire night we started walking. We walked to MOS, to serveral other pubs (which we exited immediately after entering), walked to zouk, walked to china town, to eat buk ku teh, walked to outram, to bugis, to kwan yin temple. Along the way, we saw everybody got drunk and some were vomiting along the road. Ugly Ugly.... ...
We walked until 530am when the first bus came and got home.
ALL OF US overslept in our respective buses... haha...
This is the awakening.
(ps, ganesha called me at 8am to sent me his greetings but i was so asleep that i dont know what i said to him... haha)
Catching the falling leaves ...[4:53 PM]
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