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Saturday, May 31, 2008
It is the year 2008
2007 has been a very fulfilling and exciting year for me. ITs seems as though everything that happened during this year revolves around me. They happen because of me, for me.

IT the year of the 070707, it was my year.


From time to time this year, I could just forget that it is the year 2008 right now. At times, i might just write down that its 2007.

The events this year seems to encircle around me.... ...
And its just too good to be true.

I really wanted to end those crytic posting inwhich people without any historical context will understand what is going on.
But on second thoughts, i think if i post those lovey-dovey post here. Several situations will happen.
1) readers will read and vomit due to the detailed description
2) readers will read and became jealous, also due to the detailed description
3) My yan yan will be very yaya, after reading the description.

Yes! yanyan So just too bad! i'll stick to cyptic posting...delicated to you.... ...

Well, everybody loves the sense of mystery, dont they?
That is why poems have been so popular.

Afterall the year of the 20082008, is the year of Lost Loved.
And i'm glad i've found mine.


Catching the falling leaves ...[10:54 PM]
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Thursday, May 29, 2008
Last Crytic Message
Never have I imagine, that my hand can experience warmth.
The warmth so gentle that it freezes time.


Never have I yearn for silence.
The silence so still that made the beating of hearts and the rhythm of breath deafening.


Intoxicated by this music orchestrated by the hearts, never have i hope that the bus wouldn't come.


I have never really trust in horoscope, or divine lots of sorts.
Nonetheless just like in the state of intoxication, the body just couldn't resist doing the things the mind knows its senseless. And when all are flowing in my way, I am filled with joy.


I am addicted,
addicted to white chocolate.
So pure, so gentle, so sweet....
I want to close my eyes, and submerge myself into this sea of white chocolate.

I finally said that things i wanted to say.

And it was said without the power of the car, nor the pressure of anyone else, nor the urgency of any unique date.
But because its you.
ITs mysterious,
Just by me thinking of you in my heart, i'll get excited.
I overflow with power, a feeling that i can now do anything.
That is why, i am not scared anymore.
This is your power.


Catching the falling leaves ...[11:49 AM]
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
finding fullmoon
yesterday was a fullmoon.


Nonetheless, the moon today seems even rounder and fuller.


It was so full that it looked heavier and denser.


It was so dense that it looked even more compact and redder.


It was so red that it looked beautiful than before.


With a Moon
like this
breaks the darkness of the night.
Removes the loniness from my heart,
mesmerize by you at sight.


Catching the falling leaves ...[1:13 AM]
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
patience
I like children, i really do.(too bad i can't eat them a whole!)

ITs not hard to see on the way how i am always the one incharge of taking care and playing with cousins children every festive sessions. And to make funny faces every time i see a girl girl or boy boy along the street, discretely of cos. Its rather amusing to see how they react.

I remember having a conversation with jiandong not so long ago and when he started mentioning having little alfreds (yes, plural with a S) running around. I became so excited at the thought of it and started rolling around my bed while chatting in details... Then we started thinking about their names and stuff.
And along the way, i must admit that i am slightly traditional, preferring boys to girls.

2 boys, 1 girl should be just nice! I told jian dong happily, it would be perfect if the youngest is the girl...
To think he really played along with this conversation made me so delighted...

Nonetheless with all the attributes i have, i am rather afraid that i dont have the patience to accomplish this feat of having 3 children.
Patience, something that i lost along the way, or perhaps i left it somewhere and totally forgotten where i place it?
Where can my patience be?
Maybe, my patience is hidding somewhere in my ever messy drawer, or polly in my sealed box that was not opened for close to 4 yrs. or perhaps hidding in my closet? Skeletons are not the only thing that have the right to hide in there u know. I'm sure that my skeleton will be nice and friendly enough to share its space in the closet with my patience.
And even if it reappear somewhere, i wonder how does it look like. Certainly, i know how a patient look like, but this is patience. You can't just put more than 1 patient together and become patients, can you?

Well, this morning it suddenly came back to me! it just popped out all of the sudden upon reaching mac ritchie and waving to me, it said,"HI! i'm back!"

With that, i single handedly took charge of 10 children age ranging from 6 to 11.
At times, i feel that taking children out for kayaking can be much easier than bringing adults out. For they can be easily amused and i dont need to crack my brain to come out with any new ideas for my program. Afterall, they are children, EVERYTHING is new to them.

3 hrs handling 10 children. Not a bad start of regaining my patience i must say.


Catching the falling leaves ...[4:22 PM]
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Saturday, May 17, 2008
perfect gold club, 全军覆没
"oh this is my first time going maju to take ippt, first time got lost easily mah," I justified myself after the test.... ....

Well, its really the case mah. First time to use the computerized system somemore. So many problems with this system, so many loopholes.

Upon reaching maju camp with my number 1 active member of first class honours study group (FCH) and perfect gold club (PGC), our first station was standing board jump!

loop hole 1)
Rmb the time when u do standing board jump and u were warned that if you fall behind. the distance behind will be counted? This is the case for the computer system. Nevertheless, if u fall diagonally and use the edge of the machine as a support, it will not be so.

Weijie got a 4 for this ending his stake of becoming PERFECT, nonetheless there is still chance for gold...

2) next was pull up
I think i did 14 for the price of 12, cos the sensor doesn't want to read my head. went down half way then see the number didnt increase then have to go up again. Seriously, i need i should style my hair to be high high just for this station.

3) shutter run
This is so sickening, i know i ran very very fast for this. Just that the machine didnt read me (again) and timing continue to run after i reach the finish point. Ended up the in charge have to agar agar and give me a 9.1 s for this.

4) sit up
weijie screwed up for this. he was over confident and didnt really train much. ended up failing this. And to be the first to be out of the gold club.

Well for me, I hit the minimum 40 (gold standard) and still have more than 10 seconds to spare. So i slowly picked myself up only to realise a beeping sound! HEY the counter became 41!
Then i slowly remove the band to secure the feet, only to hear another BEEP!
oh my, the counter became 42....
This is so no right, i told myself, i'll just end the machine.
With that, i remooved my number tag with a few seconds to spare, and while stretching out for the number tag to end the machine, i heard another beep... ...

5) 2.4 km run
This is one of the most sayang run i ever had.
And i blame it on external factors. yup
first the others ran so slow, spoiling my pace to run normally.
Then first time running at maju mah, dunno where to run and even got lost.

9mins 47 sec. Merely 2 seconds more to get a gold. Haiyah..
Certainly i know the computerize system is final, but i just want to see what the boss have to say.
"hey! i think the computer system got problem leh... ,"i said jokingly to him,"read slower by 2 seconds! maybe if see the manual timing will be just nice!"
The boss was like -_- and said,"Too bad. you come back this tue lor, sure can get gold from your results, just that its ur first time come here!"

oh well, at least i maintain half of the club's integrity to be PERFECT....haha...
It will be soon, i regain the title of perfect gold club!

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Catching the falling leaves ...[11:48 AM]
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
brotherhood
The last time i had a row with my brother was 4 years ago...

the cause of it was really nothing too serious,
but it continued with a qurrell
eventually ended of with a fist fight.
And blood splatter everywhere.

of cos, the source of the blood wasn't from me, for i was the one who caused it. In fact, apart from the swelling fist, there was practically no injury from me.
The blood stained the shirt and some other clothes.
Certainly, when parents came back from some wedding dinner. We told them its nose bleed. Only to their skeptic on how come a nose can bleed SO much.
Well, what can i say? I knew my innate tendency for violence long time ago... ...

Since then, i dare not to be too personal with my brother anymore. For i know, if there is any quarrel, which leads to a fight, it will be very bloody. So i became very superfical towards him. In the content i spoke with him, as well as the actions.
This will ensure we will not lead towards any disagreement which leads to arguement and end up violent.

That was 4 yrs ago.
And along the years, such behaviour became rather in build.

Yesterday, due to my tireness, we got into a tiny disagreement. And stubborness sets in. Both refuses to give in. Stale mate.

It was only then i thought of how choon yan can be so close with her brother. They can talk about ANYTHING under the sun, and even beyond that. Thus, That made me wonder alot. And i knew if there is something that need to be done it would be then.
hence 2 hrs after that arguement, i took the initiatiive to talk to him.

Perhaps this is the first time we ever have a heart to heart talk. The talk lasted for 2 hrs plus i think. And i didnt know that i actually have so much to share about. Well, i know i am a very naggy person, but never tot that i can be THAT naggy.
I brought up the incident 4 yrs ago, and indeed he remembered it clearly. every single detail.
I rmbed it clearly for the guilt i had, and for him? lets hope its not due to grudges shall we?

We all do things with a rationale. I never really like explaning why i do things the way i've done.
Cos my rationale will be pointless if i say it upright. During the conversation, i finally told him why. And thats because i cared too much. I did what i think i should, without explaning. Everthing became so touchy at that point... i ended up becoming teary while talking to him. Lets hope he wasnt wearing his specs to notice the tears.

oh well, i think i'm becoming a crybaby. and that is what i truely am. Just that i have repressed it for over 10 yrs or so i supposed.


Catching the falling leaves ...[11:17 PM]
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

The beach was different on 9th may 2008.

The afternoon sun was much gentler than ever yet much brighter than normal.
The enormous sky was so much clearer whilst the usually formless clouds were much more distinct than ever before.
The vast sea glittered like golden coins while its surface was smoother than silk.
The unpredictable waves played the melody of twinkle bells.

And all these while, the wind kept on blowing... ...


Catching the falling leaves ...[1:44 AM]
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Thursday, May 08, 2008
Post exams FUN!
I seriously need to wait for the pictures to come before i can post the event EVERYBODY is TALKINg about!
Family DAy @ HALL SIX CAMP 2008!

morning :
Certainly for a camp so important, there is a need for an Opening Ceremony!
And since fire cracker is illegal in singapore, we have no choice but to make do with the next best alternative of ballons and party poppers









Nope. Kaijie and cy are not playing soccer with balloons.

They are just trying burst the balloons













And lets dont forget to collect our door gifts shall we? you will never know if there are any ants hiding in the corner... haha









After tennis was lunch at subway!









Aiyoh! want to cover up ur dirty subwayed faces also must cover nicely ma. Let me teach u a thing or two.








Yah! must like this! See! so got SEI!




YEAH! thats the way to do it!

Elaine will never learn, will she? .. haha!





K box session after that and straight after that was games!
Mahjong and card session were trival solution i feel. No pictures were even taken!

We finally get to play a game of Twist!
and kj's fate is in my HANDS ! BWAHAHA!!

















Well, this is my sexy pose number 7, wait till u see the first 6. But i dont think blogger allow me to pose them up.. haha
Oh my, who got punish and is in pumping position down?
















And if pumping is just to easy for you. try synchronise pumping with one hand!

DAy 2!









Lunch at cafe palete










This look like any other ordinary cake. But if u squint ur eyes a little, you can see the tiny gold at the top of the cake

You can use it to put on ur face to make it smooth smooth before consuming it if u want.








And with all your cakes combine, I am CAPTAIN CAKES!
yum yum...
After which is window shopping!










With another two inches to get them into the picture, i would have fallen over the railing and die.
And jd was so looking forward for that to happen, see his grin... so evil..








So just let me take from the other side....



Night: Closing Ceremony/ award presentation/ chamgane opening!

No. That is not a standee of myself you see in all the pictures. Can't you see? its my zhao pai dong zhuo. with a victory sign! upup!
Cos i was the emcee+ organiser + planner+ packing of awards+ judge for the night event, so must be in the picture one.








Mingjie! best singer










Elaine! keep on MIA award











jian Dong! the most enthu participant award











Kai jie! the greatest bad guy award





And let me present a token of appreciation to the chief programmer! suddenly want me to change side, feel very xin ku.. haha








So cute right?







Finally, after 1 yr in my room, The Champange was finally opened!
Cheers!

And of cos Day 3! The grand finale of forest adventure!















Catching the falling leaves ...[1:37 PM]
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Monday, May 05, 2008
Day of the New moon
Dreams
Oh, my life
is changing everyday
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
it's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.


I know I've felt like this before,
but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be....

I want more imposible to ignore,
Imposible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind; You're everything to me.


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Another thing I have been dreaming about during the past 1 month is this day.

There has always been a thin line between fear and shyness. For me, I am forever a victim for both.


Perhaps the only thing i really learnt back in my jc days is the fact that opportunity doesnt come twice, hence when the opportunity comes, we must have the courage to fight for it. I learnt this lesson the hard way and i ended up feeling pity for all the incidences happened.


I am sorry that i have enough courage to do and say the things today. There are still somethings that i still find it hard to say it out at this point of time. But still, I'm glad to be able to draw out the courage i needed and it comes from you.

And because its you, today is another perfect day...


Catching the falling leaves ...[11:30 PM]
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Saturday, May 03, 2008
Post exams fun!
pre-post exam activities are expensive

post exams activites are exciting

post post exams activities are exhausting

But all will be FUn!



For fans who doesnt know which is which, let me tell you.



Post exams refers to the Family day at Hall 6 Camp.

Certainly it was fun. nonethless haven got all the pictures yet, hence must wait



Pre-post exams refers to the chilli crab eating, kbox tong xiao session and sakura buffet with coursemates! And trust me, its really expensive.



Post-post exams refers to the physical and mental exhausting activites i've planned for myself. Span across these 3 months.



Yes, since the first day of post-post exam activity had just ended (and its still fresh in my mind). I will start off with this first.

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One more day


I've brought mother back to the sea. Where she belongs.


It has been something she really missed for it had been many many years since she been to the beach.


So Just two of us.

Before I realised it, i learnt alot of her stories within the span of a day than i had all my life.


I hear her stories on how she could easily swim across the sea to pulau ubin and back.
How she spent her free time in the sea with her friends despite disconsent from her grandparents.
How she could spent the entire day in the water only to forget the time and had to rush down to school at night for an important basketball match.
How she made friends with people from ubin.
how she explored the wonders of the sea at night.
How she enjoyed diving into the sea from boats and plunging into the sea from the beach.


"Its because i'm such an active person, that was why your father chase me in the first place," she said proudly.


That was the every first time I learnt something regarding how father and mother meet. The first time any of them mentioned something....
Polly at the changi beach, a guy meet a siao siao sporty lady who keep on plunging into the water and swam for the entire day.
Well, i guess this sort of likings runs in the family.


"When i was young, I always dream of having a guy to come to me and paddle with me in a boat,"she continued putting down her paddle, once again feeling sad that father didnt bring her out to play,"Oh well i didnt expect the first person who ever do so will be you...."

Then straight after paddling. We went for lunch and shop for food for picnic at downtown east.
Then we went to changi beach for a picnic!

Another Perfect Day

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