Saturday, September 17, 2011

千岁情人
Just a few months ago, I was watching the show 千岁情人 online. This show was screened around 1990, and might be the first serial that I have memory off. Being one of the first serial, there are many many things that this show has made me to the person I am now and my belief in life as well as love.

This serial is abt 3 people from an ancient dynasty who had searched and obtained the egg of immortality, hence being able to live thru the ages after 2000 years to this day (1990). The female protagonist, YanZi,  has lived thru 2000 years alone. She has tried to love, only to experience the pain of separation with her love ones as they died one by one and she herself continue living through the ages. Being afraid of separation, she herself, slowly became aloof as she do not dare to get close to anyone, being afraid of the feeling of separation. Therefore, being tired of living after a long period of time, her only wish is to find a way to become a normal person and to be able to grow old and die with her love one. This is something everyone normal people experienced, but this is her only wish to have.

At 1990, Yanzi met with the male protagonist, LeiFeng, a stuntman who was by chanced saved by Yanzi in an accident that happened during his childhood. He fell in love with Yanzi, and subsequently knew her secret of immortally. Despite knowing that she can live forever, Yanzi was in love with LeiFeng and wanted to be with him eventhough she knew, to her, the moment to be together was short lived.  In spite the fact that, to her, LeiFeng may just grow old and die one day, Yanzi, just wanted to enjoy every precious moment of life she could have with him. She would rather to be happy with him during the short period of 50 years, than to spend it being aloof and cold to everyone she meet. This made her more determined to find a way to become a normal person to grow old and die with her love one. The serial ended with LeiFeng contacted with an incurable diseases, only to be saved by Yanzi who found a way to transfer her immortality to him. Ended up LeiFeng became an immortal and Yanzi slowly grew old.... ...

During the time when I watched the serial (when I was ard 4), I thought that Yanzi was really silly. Isn't it better to be immortal and to life forever, therefore being able to experience more love with many different people than to just one? And ever since then, I was afraid of dying and was hoping that by the time I grew older, there will be a way to live forever... ...

It is only when I grew older that I realised that it is impossible to live forever as well as to be able to be with the person you truely love and to spend the time with, will be much more precious than to live forever alone. For a period of time, I had imagined myself in my last moment of dying while I was falling asleep. Indeed, it was awfully scary. Nonetheless, the feelling was totally different if the person you loved is in your mind till the end. I will prefer my life to be end this way, with the thought that our bodies and soul will be together till the end of time... ...Yanzi, spent 2000 yrs trying to find her love, only to be separated by life.

For a long long time since young, I told myself that I have no time to lose, a human life is just too short. Lets just life it to the fullest and treasure the moment we have in this world! Its a belief that I held strongly on to since young.

Since the age of 4, I have always looked forward to have a love that would suppress both space and time.... .... The love within me was so strong that it is over flowing.

There are people who took a thousand years to find her true love, only to be taken away. Why not treasure the exisiting short time we have with each other?...

Up till this moment, I am still in love....

Catching the falling leaves ...[2:59 AM]

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