Friday, July 27, 2007
Agenda
(lets hope no one read the non edited version)
Edited 27th 8pm
I knew something was not right when Father sat on the driver's seat when we are heading to outram park for my stuff.
He had something in mind, he has an agenda. Knowing too well that if i was driving, i will most probably be too distracted and start speeding at 150km/hr once again...
I never know that Father can be so indirect.
First he started asking me about my school, how i shld be having hopes in everything i do (which of cos i always have).
Then he said,"I seem to have no hope in anything. Everyday is another hopeless day.."
He started to give instructions of this property must rent out and that property
not to sell ended of on how he shld just write a will instead of telling
me to handle these stuff....
He continued with the usual topic of me finding a girlfriend and how this girl across the street is not bad... He seems desperate.
It appears that he has been bringing up of this topic more frequently then ever.
It boils down that im the male heir of the 7th generation in my family line ....
I once shared this to an aquaintance, limin, months ago. She immediately identify the hidden meaning behind.
'You must jia you leh, faster get a son for your father to carry!' she said.
Great job history student!
Whereas it took me quite sometime to realise this actually.
( actually i tot abt it also leh, even spend the entire maths lectures of 2 hrs thinking what name to give him and/or her. That was why i'm always asking around and fasinated with interesting names. haha)
Lastly he ended of by saying that the old neighbour who owns the coffeeshop next block. He just died suddenly while counting money.
This is just so depressing. I know if i was driving, i will unconsciously speed to 'run away' from such thoughts.
This yr is the yr of the 070707. It had been foretold that I will experience many things during this yr. During the very first day of this yr, i told myself that i had to be strong to face all the challanges in store for me and i'm glad that the first two people i saw during the start of this yr was jockbiao and yongcheng. I think i would have collapse months ago without them around.. And sure enough everything happened.
I've met with the toughest battle in my life, I've listened to the true words of Queen Rurosa, I've retraced back the steps of Luinhision dated back 100 yrs exactly....
For some reasons, i think he knew it too. That was why he kept on pastering me to go china and to the secret 100y r trail at the most rural village and with the agenda.
Seriously,
I would rather all these miseries to fall upon me, let me be the one who suffer. For i have already been dealing with all of it all my entire life, whats the difference with a few more to go?
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Mother has her own agenda too!
When she came home seeking refuge of her stuff.
I have my reasons of staying out of home.
Cos by staying elsewhere, mother will not have to worry about my share of laundry. She will not have to think about my share of food, in fact she might not cook at all since im not there anyway. She doesn't have the obligation to clean my room. With that, she will have the time to enjoy herself with her friends instead of busy thinking about me.
She has always been giving herself so many obligations and responsibilities that it hurts me.
I can't bear to see whatever is happening before me, i had to hide.
Seriously, i feel that alot of my actions that i'm doing have its basis on my mother. And that includes the unwillingness to accept changes.
Nonetheless it seems today, more than ever, that I can save her much more by staying at home to be with her.
Initally it started off sour. Then we started crapping, discussing how she shld go get another man who is rich and nice to look after her.
Then maybe we shld just go commit some crime and push all the blame to her so that she will end up in prison where food and accomodation are given and she need not to wash any clothes! All she will be doing is wat she has been doing all along, watering plants.
Then we think that we are too kind hearted for our own good. So we shook our last finger to go put some tattoos, pierce our nose and tongue wear earrings. Maybe join a gang or two, and take drugs...
She forced out a smile.
Seriously, i am not born being super optimistic or positive. Its nurtured, I had to behave like this.
Lets smile no matter what happens... Things are not as bad as it seems!
(lets hope no one read the non edited version)
Edited 27th 8pm
I knew something was not right when Father sat on the driver's seat when we are heading to outram park for my stuff.
He had something in mind, he has an agenda. Knowing too well that if i was driving, i will most probably be too distracted and start speeding at 150km/hr once again...
I never know that Father can be so indirect.
First he started asking me about my school, how i shld be having hopes in everything i do (which of cos i always have).
Then he said,"I seem to have no hope in anything. Everyday is another hopeless day.."
He started to give instructions of this property must rent out and that property
not to sell ended of on how he shld just write a will instead of telling
me to handle these stuff....
He continued with the usual topic of me finding a girlfriend and how this girl across the street is not bad... He seems desperate.
It appears that he has been bringing up of this topic more frequently then ever.
It boils down that im the male heir of the 7th generation in my family line ....
I once shared this to an aquaintance, limin, months ago. She immediately identify the hidden meaning behind.
'You must jia you leh, faster get a son for your father to carry!' she said.
Great job history student!
Whereas it took me quite sometime to realise this actually.
( actually i tot abt it also leh, even spend the entire maths lectures of 2 hrs thinking what name to give him and/or her. That was why i'm always asking around and fasinated with interesting names. haha)
Lastly he ended of by saying that the old neighbour who owns the coffeeshop next block. He just died suddenly while counting money.
This is just so depressing. I know if i was driving, i will unconsciously speed to 'run away' from such thoughts.
This yr is the yr of the 070707. It had been foretold that I will experience many things during this yr. During the very first day of this yr, i told myself that i had to be strong to face all the challanges in store for me and i'm glad that the first two people i saw during the start of this yr was jockbiao and yongcheng. I think i would have collapse months ago without them around.. And sure enough everything happened.
I've met with the toughest battle in my life, I've listened to the true words of Queen Rurosa, I've retraced back the steps of Luinhision dated back 100 yrs exactly....
For some reasons, i think he knew it too. That was why he kept on pastering me to go china and to the secret 100y r trail at the most rural village and with the agenda.
Seriously,
I would rather all these miseries to fall upon me, let me be the one who suffer. For i have already been dealing with all of it all my entire life, whats the difference with a few more to go?
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Mother has her own agenda too!
When she came home seeking refuge of her stuff.
I have my reasons of staying out of home.
Cos by staying elsewhere, mother will not have to worry about my share of laundry. She will not have to think about my share of food, in fact she might not cook at all since im not there anyway. She doesn't have the obligation to clean my room. With that, she will have the time to enjoy herself with her friends instead of busy thinking about me.
She has always been giving herself so many obligations and responsibilities that it hurts me.
I can't bear to see whatever is happening before me, i had to hide.
Seriously, i feel that alot of my actions that i'm doing have its basis on my mother. And that includes the unwillingness to accept changes.
Nonetheless it seems today, more than ever, that I can save her much more by staying at home to be with her.
Initally it started off sour. Then we started crapping, discussing how she shld go get another man who is rich and nice to look after her.
Then maybe we shld just go commit some crime and push all the blame to her so that she will end up in prison where food and accomodation are given and she need not to wash any clothes! All she will be doing is wat she has been doing all along, watering plants.
Then we think that we are too kind hearted for our own good. So we shook our last finger to go put some tattoos, pierce our nose and tongue wear earrings. Maybe join a gang or two, and take drugs...
She forced out a smile.
Seriously, i am not born being super optimistic or positive. Its nurtured, I had to behave like this.
Lets smile no matter what happens... Things are not as bad as it seems!
Labels: Really senseless rant
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:42 AM]
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
2 friends
For almost the entire year, there are 2 friends that i've not meet but have been thinking about every single day.
One of the is a guy, another is a girl....
Both of them are very very important people to me.
There was a time, they gave me strength.
During the orientation camp last week, i actually forgotten to think about them for 3 days.
Don't know if i should be ashame of myself to forget them, or to feel proud that i've moved on and not to rely on my memories of them to keep me going....
Time will tell
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Imbalance:
I feel that the girls i know during this period of 3 months, are more than the number i got to know during my entire life.
Oh well, maybe thats the cons of being in a single gender school.
Currently, jy is trying to persuade herself that it is normal for her brother, a normal 18 yr old, is reading FHM. It is normal for guys to be ogling at scantity dressed females... etc..
Maybe this imbalance has already taken its toll, or maybe cos im not normal after all or maybe my eyes and heart have already been set on someone already.....
be having exams tml, time to study!
For almost the entire year, there are 2 friends that i've not meet but have been thinking about every single day.
One of the is a guy, another is a girl....
Both of them are very very important people to me.
There was a time, they gave me strength.
During the orientation camp last week, i actually forgotten to think about them for 3 days.
Don't know if i should be ashame of myself to forget them, or to feel proud that i've moved on and not to rely on my memories of them to keep me going....
Time will tell
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Imbalance:
I feel that the girls i know during this period of 3 months, are more than the number i got to know during my entire life.
Oh well, maybe thats the cons of being in a single gender school.
Currently, jy is trying to persuade herself that it is normal for her brother, a normal 18 yr old, is reading FHM. It is normal for guys to be ogling at scantity dressed females... etc..
Maybe this imbalance has already taken its toll, or maybe cos im not normal after all or maybe my eyes and heart have already been set on someone already.....
be having exams tml, time to study!
Catching the falling leaves ...[2:34 PM]
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Arts and Music x Vincent
I'm inspired. By my talents and potential...
I suddenly got the urge to return and be back as one with the Arts and Music.
I've not produce any art work or music this year...
My entire body is aching for it.
The entire idea i have right now just sounds fun.
I want to be back with the Arts and Music.
Something i've forsaken, something that can stop time...
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Starry Starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day, with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
in the colours on the snowy linen land
For they could not love you, but still, your love was true
and when no hope was left inside, on that starry, starry night,
you took your life as lovers often do, but I could've told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you...
Starry starry night,
portraits hung in empty halls, frameless heads on nameless walls,
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget,
like the strangers that you've met, the ragged men in ragged clothes,
The silver thorn, a bloody rose, lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know, what you tried to say to me.
How you suffered for your sanity, and how you tried to set them free,
they would not listen, they're not listening still,
Perhaps they never will...
Fell in love with this song when my psycho teacher played this song during the lecture on personality disorder, depression. Apparantly, the artist Vincent was suffering from severe depression and eventually died from it.
This song was composed for him.
I can understand what he had gone through. Comprehend the feeling of no one truly understand what he was thinking.
I know he tried, but eventually given up.
There is no point explaining to others, cos they wouldnt understand, even if they understood, they will not think its right, and even if they think its right, they will feel that it is weird, and even if they feel its alright, they will not appreciate...
The flithy world doesn't welcome the purity of his soul.
Where else can he go?
Even thought he had given up, deep down he had been hoping. Hoping that someday, someone will be there to set him free, or perhaps gave him just a moment of solance. Thats all he ever wanted. Nonetheless, no one was even looking at him... ...
I'm inspired. By my talents and potential...
I suddenly got the urge to return and be back as one with the Arts and Music.
I've not produce any art work or music this year...
My entire body is aching for it.
The entire idea i have right now just sounds fun.
I want to be back with the Arts and Music.
Something i've forsaken, something that can stop time...
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Starry Starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day, with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
in the colours on the snowy linen land
For they could not love you, but still, your love was true
and when no hope was left inside, on that starry, starry night,
you took your life as lovers often do, but I could've told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you...
Starry starry night,
portraits hung in empty halls, frameless heads on nameless walls,
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget,
like the strangers that you've met, the ragged men in ragged clothes,
The silver thorn, a bloody rose, lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know, what you tried to say to me.
How you suffered for your sanity, and how you tried to set them free,
they would not listen, they're not listening still,
Perhaps they never will...
Fell in love with this song when my psycho teacher played this song during the lecture on personality disorder, depression. Apparantly, the artist Vincent was suffering from severe depression and eventually died from it.
This song was composed for him.
I can understand what he had gone through. Comprehend the feeling of no one truly understand what he was thinking.
I know he tried, but eventually given up.
There is no point explaining to others, cos they wouldnt understand, even if they understood, they will not think its right, and even if they think its right, they will feel that it is weird, and even if they feel its alright, they will not appreciate...
The people he met everyday were faceless, they are just little people...who else can he turn to?
The flithy world doesn't welcome the purity of his soul.
Where else can he go?
Even thought he had given up, deep down he had been hoping. Hoping that someday, someone will be there to set him free, or perhaps gave him just a moment of solance. Thats all he ever wanted. Nonetheless, no one was even looking at him... ...
Labels: senseless rant
Catching the falling leaves ...[8:41 PM]
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Saturday, July 14, 2007
六月初一 ：ice lemon tea
The magical period of the 070707 and the new moon of 六月初一 has passed.
I really wanted this period to be like this foever.
I'm one year older.
The magical period of the 070707 and the new moon of 六月初一 has passed.
I really wanted this period to be like this foever.
I'm one year older.
Catching the falling leaves ...[1:15 AM]
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Thursday, July 12, 2007
六月初一 : cakes and pizzas
I feel that I'm 21 again... or even younger... (maybe 12, according to the gang from the way i'm acting and behaving).
The combined party with eugchua was a splendid success.
I loves cakes and pizzas. Those who seen me eating either of them, will observe me "hmmm!" and "armmmm" througthout.
I've forseen this day in my dreams, and i thought that it was reality. Now, i see this day in reality and yet it feels like it is a dream. Eitherway, i'm filled with joy.
I forgotten to wear the important belt during this event. Getting forgetful nowadays.
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Went to find father after everything.
I suddenly feel that i'm so spoilt and pampered my entire life. Like a beautiful bubble that can never be burst. Hence from time to time in the past, i find no meaning in anything. I had a death wish. There are people who admired and are jealous of my life, while the irony is that there was a time i keep on making it miserable.
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Just learnt that my brother became the chairman of pjco.
I'll NOT say this in front of his face or even mention that i know, but i'm really very proud if it.
I feel that I'm 21 again... or even younger... (maybe 12, according to the gang from the way i'm acting and behaving).
The combined party with eugchua was a splendid success.
I loves cakes and pizzas. Those who seen me eating either of them, will observe me "hmmm!" and "armmmm" througthout.
I've forseen this day in my dreams, and i thought that it was reality. Now, i see this day in reality and yet it feels like it is a dream. Eitherway, i'm filled with joy.
I forgotten to wear the important belt during this event. Getting forgetful nowadays.
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Went to find father after everything.
I suddenly feel that i'm so spoilt and pampered my entire life. Like a beautiful bubble that can never be burst. Hence from time to time in the past, i find no meaning in anything. I had a death wish. There are people who admired and are jealous of my life, while the irony is that there was a time i keep on making it miserable.
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Just learnt that my brother became the chairman of pjco.
I'll NOT say this in front of his face or even mention that i know, but i'm really very proud if it.
Catching the falling leaves ...[10:55 PM]
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Tuesday, July 10, 2007
六月初一
This coming new moon will Signifies my birthday for my lunar calendar. Hence anyone who missed out the present giving window for the previous one will have a second chance.
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This coming new moon will Signifies my birthday for my lunar calendar. Hence anyone who missed out the present giving window for the previous one will have a second chance.
90% chance will be spending the day with the kanzas at ubin.
Who needs to celebrate birthdays when we have such a fun loving group to be with?
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Yesterday present buying session was interesting indeed.
The guys are having headache what to buy for eugchua and me. It at 830pm then, time is running out. Hence we decided to split into 2 groups. My group will be buying presents for eugchua, whereas eugchua's grp will be buying presents for me.
Off we go, with 45 mins to spare. Knowing eugchua's horrible dress sense, my team decided to get something presentable...
Off we go, with 45 mins to spare. Knowing eugchua's horrible dress sense, my team decided to get something presentable...Its slightly above budget, but thats eugchua we are talking about. He desperately needs them.
It was 915pm when we head back to the meeting point, coincidentally, eugchua's team had completed their shopping spree as well.
My second present....
(rest of the pics are with jc.... to be continued...)
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Of all the places, of all the times... I bumped into ssg kenneth this afternoon. i dont know what to feel upon seeing him...
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:14 PM]
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
070707 happy birthday part 2
Everyone was SHOCK upon seeing the size of the pizza!! Just look at their faces!
Eefei was the first to spot the enomous pizza...
Fabian was next....
Humongous pizza is bad for the heart...
WEicai was astounded but couldnt resist eating it, hence eating the pizza astoundingly...
Eefei! stop drooling....
By that time, everyone was either eyeing of the pizza or remained amazed by the sight!
A sight of a lifetime doesn't come twice, so just let me remain at this position for a little longer..
Sheng xiang was totally numbed....
Hey sx! look here!
I just love my medics... they took good care of me when i was severely sick... dont know what to do without them..
edwin is just so cool
Everyone is just so happy...
Swensen's Cookies and cream ice cream cake!
Thanks mag for telling me abt the swensen!
Just can't wait to eat!
When did edwin put on rouge?
Certainly, a party wouldnt be successful with her! haha
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"Hey, thanks 4 e cake n present... So touch wanna cry liaoz..'" he said.
"The cake thingy was really on impulse since i was just around the area and finally got 2 hrs to spare. So you are just lucky. I wonder if i'll be as lucky for my birthday...hint hint.."I replied
This scene from exactly 5 months ago ran through my head when i received my first and only present from edwin yesterday.
It was a belt.
Similar to the one i've given to alex on his birthday just few days before he left this world...
I held back my tears.... ....
Sorry edwin and yg, i know i shldn't have said something that dampening, but just couldn't help it. Really, thanks for the present.
(LL, have to love it cos its my only present.. heh heh)
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Took quite a few photos, first half is above whereas the second half of them can never be shown in public. Alot of tigers and lions.... haha....
Thanks to the recommendation of nick kuan, i spent around $200 on those tigers... TAke it as school fee lor...
oh well... Looking at the bright side, as least i cannot say that my 21st birthday isn't memorable...
Everyone was SHOCK upon seeing the size of the pizza!! Just look at their faces!
Eefei was the first to spot the enomous pizza...
Fabian was next....
Humongous pizza is bad for the heart...
WEicai was astounded but couldnt resist eating it, hence eating the pizza astoundingly...
Eefei! stop drooling....
By that time, everyone was either eyeing of the pizza or remained amazed by the sight!
A sight of a lifetime doesn't come twice, so just let me remain at this position for a little longer..
Sheng xiang was totally numbed....
Hey sx! look here!
I just love my medics... they took good care of me when i was severely sick... dont know what to do without them..
edwin is just so cool
Everyone is just so happy...
Swensen's Cookies and cream ice cream cake!
Thanks mag for telling me abt the swensen!
Just can't wait to eat!
When did edwin put on rouge?
Certainly, a party wouldnt be successful with her! haha
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"Hey, thanks 4 e cake n present... So touch wanna cry liaoz..'" he said.
"The cake thingy was really on impulse since i was just around the area and finally got 2 hrs to spare. So you are just lucky. I wonder if i'll be as lucky for my birthday...hint hint.."I replied
This scene from exactly 5 months ago ran through my head when i received my first and only present from edwin yesterday.
It was a belt.
Similar to the one i've given to alex on his birthday just few days before he left this world...
I held back my tears.... ....
Sorry edwin and yg, i know i shldn't have said something that dampening, but just couldn't help it. Really, thanks for the present.
(LL, have to love it cos its my only present.. heh heh)
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Took quite a few photos, first half is above whereas the second half of them can never be shown in public. Alot of tigers and lions.... haha....
Thanks to the recommendation of nick kuan, i spent around $200 on those tigers... TAke it as school fee lor...
oh well... Looking at the bright side, as least i cannot say that my 21st birthday isn't memorable...
Catching the falling leaves ...[4:07 AM]
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
070707 Happy Birthday
I was constantly woken up by messages and calls from 12am this morning, and went back to sleep almost immediately.
Woke up at 10am plus, my day started out raining, as if someone was greeting me good morning. It reminded me of the incident 5 months ago, nonthelesss I still love the rain. Of cos the first one who wished me was one of my friends but i forgotten who during my mist of concussion, i'll go and check the log book later. Father was the first family member who wished me, ironically, he didnt stay during the cutting cake and pizza eating session which was just another hr later. I was not surprised.
For some reasons, everyone is tired and in a rush. Brother is rushing off for lessons, sister is sick, i'm super tired, mother is busy preparing food. The cake cutting was a quick one.
AFter that i went back to sleep until now.
I think its really something different from anyone's else 21st birthday ba... haha.. Well, successful people always stand out from the crowd, i'm of no different. I'm not like yongcheng, navin and gan who planned a grand party at some place to invite family and friends down. I'm not like dao jian, tian yong and my sister who had bbq at their home.
I am special... (self serving bias...)
Going for to meet up some army people later. I think half of them doesn't know the hidden agenda of my meeting up. But still i just really wanted to see them. There are reasons why i wanted them to be with me during the actual day of birthday. It is really significant for me.
I'm no longer that willful to the extend that i made it as an obligation for them to come down by telling them its a birthday. That was why i didnt mention abt it at all. Nevertheless, deep down, i really hope that they will be there.
Oh well, come to think of it, later there will be 8 people coming down for the party later which is alot more from my original expectation. A pity that a couple couldn't make it.... ....
I really want to thank navin and shengxiang to help me with the planning.
Of cos, sx didn't do a great job in his part initially. But if sarcrifing my 21st birthday will help him to learn the importance of social network and planning, i will rather do so. Though deep down i might not, tts why i think i called navin last night during my most delirious state for help.
Getting sx something nice later...
Wearing green later!
Save the trees!
I was constantly woken up by messages and calls from 12am this morning, and went back to sleep almost immediately.
Woke up at 10am plus, my day started out raining, as if someone was greeting me good morning. It reminded me of the incident 5 months ago, nonthelesss I still love the rain. Of cos the first one who wished me was one of my friends but i forgotten who during my mist of concussion, i'll go and check the log book later. Father was the first family member who wished me, ironically, he didnt stay during the cutting cake and pizza eating session which was just another hr later. I was not surprised.
For some reasons, everyone is tired and in a rush. Brother is rushing off for lessons, sister is sick, i'm super tired, mother is busy preparing food. The cake cutting was a quick one.
AFter that i went back to sleep until now.
I think its really something different from anyone's else 21st birthday ba... haha.. Well, successful people always stand out from the crowd, i'm of no different. I'm not like yongcheng, navin and gan who planned a grand party at some place to invite family and friends down. I'm not like dao jian, tian yong and my sister who had bbq at their home.
I am special... (self serving bias...)
Going for to meet up some army people later. I think half of them doesn't know the hidden agenda of my meeting up. But still i just really wanted to see them. There are reasons why i wanted them to be with me during the actual day of birthday. It is really significant for me.
I'm no longer that willful to the extend that i made it as an obligation for them to come down by telling them its a birthday. That was why i didnt mention abt it at all. Nevertheless, deep down, i really hope that they will be there.
Oh well, come to think of it, later there will be 8 people coming down for the party later which is alot more from my original expectation. A pity that a couple couldn't make it.... ....
I really want to thank navin and shengxiang to help me with the planning.
Of cos, sx didn't do a great job in his part initially. But if sarcrifing my 21st birthday will help him to learn the importance of social network and planning, i will rather do so. Though deep down i might not, tts why i think i called navin last night during my most delirious state for help.
Getting sx something nice later...
Wearing green later!
Save the trees!
Catching the falling leaves ...[4:19 PM]
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Friday, July 06, 2007
070707 part 4
I always love meeting people. Perceiving them perceiving me confirms my existence...
Things turned out the way it is now. Different from what i've always wished and hoped for all my life, but eitherway i believe that this is the best way for me.
I'm so tired after the camp, think i'll sleep thru my birthday.
Happy 21st birthday to me.
I always love meeting people. Perceiving them perceiving me confirms my existence...
Things turned out the way it is now. Different from what i've always wished and hoped for all my life, but eitherway i believe that this is the best way for me.
I'm so tired after the camp, think i'll sleep thru my birthday.
Happy 21st birthday to me.
Catching the falling leaves ...[5:28 PM]
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Monday, July 02, 2007
070707 part 3
看着那朦胧圆月，闪烁星星， 不禁让我回到过去，连想现在的自己与瞻望将来的道路。
Looking at the hazy fullmoon and the glittering stars, makes me think of what I have been, who I am and where i'll be going.。。。
看着那朦胧圆月，闪烁星星， 不禁让我回到过去，连想现在的自己与瞻望将来的道路。
Looking at the hazy fullmoon and the glittering stars, makes me think of what I have been, who I am and where i'll be going.。。。
Catching the falling leaves ...[12:08 AM]
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
070707 part 2
A real shooting star passes by so fast that it is impossible to say your wish 3 times.
The star that shines in my heart。。。
就算沉入在这黑暗中是追求幸福的条件
Even if falling into the darkness can be a condition for happiness
如果我能守着承诺， 我愿付出任何代价
if i could keep my promise, then i would do anything possible.
只要能再次邂逅, 我就能克服任何事。。。
If i could obtain this power once more, I would be able to overcome anything
真正的流星迅速地划过天界，是不可能把心愿反念三次
A real shooting star passes by so fast that it is impossible to say your wish 3 times.
但，
如果一个心愿可以被实现的话，
如果一个奇迹可以出现，那我们可以克服任何障碍
But if a wish can come true and if a miracle can happen, we can overcome any obstacle
因此，我从不向他人许愿
That is why i've not been wishing anything
我想给流星个机会，拼一拼。
I want to give the star a shot.
The star that shines in my heart。。。
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