Thursday, January 11, 2007

The talk
Dear Sonic,
I've made the first move. Tried talking to Ben and along with him, was wensheng, another guy whom i've been seeing for weeks but we never talk. This was my first time ever communicate with anyone associate with IT. Well, its a good start.

Seems funny at the thought of it. The thought of how simple and easy things actually is was made so complicated just because someone was unwilling to try.

Ben's highest certification is sec 3. He is already 25 yrs old. Upon asking if he is satisfied and worried abt his life since he has no stable income for the past... 10 yrs, he replied,"i'm not a person who can sit still in one place. I would prefer a carefree life to try out something new everytime. As long as the money is enough to sustain myself its good enough already. Then all my girlfriends i've got so far all got job, so i don't need to worry about her as well. Well, because of my nature, i've got to know many people and contacts....."

Sounds awfully familar, doesnt it? I myself have said something similar to someone before. Regarding $$ is not the most important thing for me... blah blah..

Nonetheless, I was still shocked. He was trying to say, for the past 10 yrs of his life, he has been hoping around doing temporary job like selling things and stuff. Seriously, i can't imagine.. And for his future? he get a career woman as his wife soon and become a househusband? maybe its feasible...

Little children will always go home by themselves when they are tired after playing...

Wensheng, on the other hand, is only 16. He was already planning of going for chef course next yr to learn cooking and maybe start a career from there. Opening branches of his own stall or work in a restaurant...
Their goals of life are so different from everyone else i've known, yet so simple... ...

Oh yah, before i forget to mention to you. I think i saw ken just now...I don't know... i think its him, i hope its him... but i really don't know. Ken was my very first best friend in pya all the way to primary4. It must be him, has to be. He was with his ahbeng friends unfortunately. Amazing how things turn out the way it is now. We started off the same, for 5 yrs in primary school, we eat, sit together. And even went to Ms seet indivdually to complain 'ken beat me' or/and 'tengda beat me'.
The girl we bullied for 5 yrs, Shi Ting will always be part of our memories forever. I know it will (cos it starting to become like a guilt for me.. haha).

Called back the unit's ops room a few times to settle some stuff today, had a chat with weixiang, junliang and leong. They are just so funny.

Anyway, with all the things that happened today combined. I got a sudden inspiration which might just work out. And if that happens, i'll become someone whom i always hate... But not to forget, 'before everything, including hate, there was love"

Haha. you must be thinking that i'm uttering nonsense already. Tun mehr leid! i just need to sort out my thoughts.
Do continue to give me your support!

Cheers,
TaDa!!

Catching the falling leaves ...[10:59 PM]

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