Monday, February 12, 2007

Of ghost and wind
Joseph was the first to msg me around 8am,"Hey! staff tk met an accident this morning, he passed away. We will be attending the wake on wed."
Ssg Koh was the second," staff ng teck kiong met motor accident this morning and he passed away, fyi"

'aiyoh! how can liddat,' i thought, 'Cny coming liaoz still make such joke... just cos i hid the lucky rock that night you all how can stage up such a thing. Most prob its instigated by gu...'

Of cos, i knew deep down inside that no one will make such a joke out of anyone. I pretended not to receive any msg.

wk called within minutes," you received any sms from ssg koh?"
"wat msg?" acting blur.
"you hear liao dont be alarm hor,"he said, sounded rather jumpy
"oh ok.."
"you know hor... tis morning......
"oh... liddat har? aiyoh! he very troublesome leh. Told him to buy a car still dont want to buy... ok lah ok lah... i very bz, you go arrange the time so we all can go visit him...i no time to do so" I said stubbornly.

Part of me was in denial, most prob wk also involve in this prank too! He has always been easily deceived.
For the entire day i was sending sms and speaking in the tone,"oh issit? tml we go down visit him lor! Aiyoh! he cannot make it lah, told him to be careful liaoz he dont want to listen. Always gives other people trouble one...."

Acted like an idiot.
I dont know what to feel or what i should feel... he is my first friend who died... waoh... congrats..
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It was his birthday last week. I got him a super nice Levis belt which i carefully handpicked. I selected another similar one of different colour for me as well.

Along with it, a note was written:

To NTK,
orignally wanted to think of something witty to write (perhaps in malay or german) but I really don't have the luxuary of time. Noticed no proper wrapping paper was bought and used. Anyway, this is my last drawing paper, so do take care of it.

Many things had happened throughout these few months! And i'm enjoying every moment of it! I've been to places that no one would dare to go; met and interacted with little people whom i never thought existed. Some of the experiences were pleasant whereas others can be a little tacky. Eitheway, with my capabilities, nothing can be too hard to handle.

Hows life over there? Not too monotonous I hoped. You seemed rather free, lets hope you are not causing any trouble to others.
Anyway, i'll be starting my uni life in may, and I'll put in everything I got for this one. So do keep this note properly, in case I make it big and shine, you will have the proof that you know me.

ps. Do open up the box where everyone is around so that they can be jealous.
Oh yah! almost forgot, happy birthday..

From, ttd

I just so happened to have 2 hrs to spare during his birthday last week. So i've decided to give him a surprise by visiting him while he was doing duty in camp after all!
I slapped him so hard on the back cos he refused to put candle on his cake (its auspicious)! Ended up i kept on putting up the candles while he kept on removing them... 3 times to be exact.
I told everyone about my car accident that day in the hope that everybody else will be more cautions.

He msged me when i left," Hey, thanks 4 e cake n present... So touch wanna cry liaoz..."
I replied,"The cake thingy was really on impulse since i was jist around the area and finally got 2 hrs to spare. So you are just lucky. I wonder if i'll be as lucky for my birthday...hint hint.."

This was our last sms conversation.

I warned him before not to cause trouble to anyone.
I hinted him that i want my present!
I told him to wait for me that one day i'll shine for my dreams and wanted him to see me shine.
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There are people you meet who walk in and out of your life like ghosts, and after they're gone, you find that they've left a part of themselves with you. It's as if, in some small way, their spirit helps to find who you are and what you want to bring to the world.

Catching the falling leaves ...[11:28 PM]

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