Sunday, March 02, 2008

One week recess
There are so many things to be done during this one week break! i kept on telling my friends.

Now, Today is the last day of recess, and i've not complete half of what i intended to achieve.
Apart from the well deserved enjoyment of night cycling, coaching, paddling expedition and vertical marathon, ( assuming everybody else are as normal as me to treat all this as enjoyment, i knew people who dont, such as the one who loves cats) I spent alot of time planning and reading. So much so I'm starting to think in english totally.

As i told jockbiao and yongcheng when i can't resist and met up with them durin the leap year, they are my last few links to talk and think in chinese. Something I used to be proud of. Try telling everyone u learnt german with pride but cant even speak a perfect sentence. Its along that line when you cant be proud to say you are good in chinese when you are starting to forget many chinese words and stop thinking in chinese anymore.

Completed the novel, Saint Jack withing the span of 2 days.
It is a very powerful novel.
similar to If we dream too long, it depicts Singapore in its 1970s.
The story is about a American in his fifties who abandon his job as a sailor to work in Singapore.
He wants to be an entreprenuer, a businessman, in fact the best one in singapore.
His goods, prostitutes. Yes, he came to singapore to become a pimp. The best pimp in town.
Jack has a positive attitude in life. He is filled with hopes and dreams. And with these hopes, he pulled through with his life and with his enthusiasm, he overcome obstacles one after another. He justify his commonly to be know as low class job to be helping the world to satisfy their needs and to create job opportunities for others. It is no wonder he call himself as a saint!

This is a direct opposite for Kwang Meng in If we Dream too long. (and i think the comparsion will come up for exams!) Similar to Kwang meng, Jack has a dream. Nonetheless, he didnt dream too long and made attempts to make his dream a reality. He doesn't complain or escape from reality by running away to the beach or taking mc. He worked his way out of any situation not just by talking and thinking but with actions as well. Kwang Meng, on the other hand, collapse when he met up with his first obstacle in life...

Such attitude in life is sometime i've always trying to achieve and been trying to share with my friends.

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I have two fatal weaknesses, on indirectly links to another.
1) i fear too much.
I have fear of even opening up certain emails to read, cos im afraid of what they would say about me.
That was why i kept on telling myself to be fearless.
And using mother's technique of I AM NUMBER ONE! At times i tried to be the first one to do things. Even if i do wrong others will understand as it is the first time, the longer i wait, the more inferior i will feel and will eventually affect my performance. That was other reason why a name that starts with "A". Cos I AM NUMBER ONE!

2) I think/plan too long
Probably because i'm too afraid things will go wrong, i tend to plan and think very long. Very time consuming indeed. Perhaps mahjong session might help me think faster...
Successful people make decision fast! I know that, and i told everyone that and i am trying to be that...

Words of wisdom from Great Ganesha during his few hrs stay in NTU
"Never allow anyone else to say that you Can't "
This is something i used to believe as well (and i got a feeling i was the one who told him that)
and he said it back to me.

I never allow anyone to pull me back, (i will never forgive anyone who tries to do so.)
Hence the only one who can do so is Me, myself. That is why at times i hated myself for doing certain things and NOT doing certain things..

I've learnt that opportunity doesnt come knocking twice, we should seize any opportunity whenever we have the chance. I learnt this the hard way. Lost so many things as a result, no one likes losing yeah?





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Monday onwards.
First Class Honours Study group and Perfect Gold Club will be in full action!

Catching the falling leaves ...[1:22 AM]

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