Monday, September 15, 2008

Moody Mid Autumn....
Most of my fans will definitely knew about the Alex incident that had a great impact on me. IT has been about 2 years since his passing and i had already gotten over it.

Nonetheless,when the namelist for Instep was out months ago, there was a name that appeared on the list that i just couldn't resist approaching.
It is not a coincidence or randomness that for my trip for Canada, Wilsern, Jason, Alex Chiam and I are together. Not just so happen that Alex Chiam and I were taking the same plane together. Part of me just couldn't accept the lost i guess.

It was a subconscious effort and unconsciously with him around, I find it hard not to behave in my most relax mood. And that was when problem starts.

It was 8.30 pm night at nigara falls. Back in Singapore time, it is Mid Autumn Festival! (the day when the Song dynasty was over thrown by Yuan cos of moon cakes!) I really wanted to go out but both wilsern and alex were lying on the bed doesnt want to go out.

Polly partly because i just emailed yanyan and mimi. Made me very emo cos if i am back in Singapore, I would definitly be going out playing with lanterns and candles and eating mooncakes with all of them! Its a yearly event when people get together!

YET they are sleeping....

If it was army alex, he will support me in whatever crappy ideas i might come out with. He will support me even if Gu would give a sian face and screamed in disagreement. Nonetheless, Instep alex was too tired to comply.
( at time point i dont really bother abt wilsern... haha)

Suddenly became very moody, throw tantrum and made a very bad decision of going out alone!
And as everybody knows, nothing good will happen if one throw tantrum.
(I rmb the las time i throw tantrum, i SUed my econs away)

And off i went along the dark and deserted route, (its a good 30 mins walk where i'm heading.) All of the sudden, it rained....
the rain stopped when i reached the Clifton hill . Stayed there for a hr or so and left..
As I left, it rained again....
The route was dark,cold, windy and deserted. Was shivering throughout the entire journey and if anything happens to me, no one will know...
And you know those Angmo movies, when there is FULL MOON, there will be WEREWOLVES!
I'm not sure about Canada if there is any of these. But u know how the mind wonders when you are alone... So scary especially in the rain.

Anyway, I'm safe and sound.
But i still doesnt have the sense of mid autumn despite the mooncakes i smuggled from Singapore. Wilsern and Alex doesnt seem to appreciate the importance of such festival. Or maybe i'm just too traditional. (If mag or joel sees this, i bet they will make no sense of my point cos they dont even know nian's story!)

Really miss the people back there already.

As much as i have been telling people that there is no point missing anyone cos miss also not there dont miss also not there. So dont need to put so much effort in missing mah. Hence i never really express such feeling to anyone much. It has always been so in army and in hall 6... But its just so different when you are in another end of the planet...

Anyway, it has been raining these two days and there isn't any moon insight. I guess it must have morphed into bluemoons and are locked up in a blue box on Yan's table!heh heh...

Happy mid autumn everybody!

Catching the falling leaves ...[9:43 AM]

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